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He was my friend, I had met him volunteering at uni, he was cute and I was attracted to him, we got along and he gave really good hugs. I had just started having seizures and flashbacks about my childhood and when I tried to find support from my church they just said to go see my doctor and up my medication, that I was having more psychotic episodes. I had met up with someone from church individually and had told her about the seizures and flashbacks, the memories. She flatout said she didn't believe me.
So I got home in tears and I called him and asked him to come over, he was the only one who actually believed me at that point. He came over and initially it helped, but then he started pushing me beyond what I was comfortable with... He didn't respect me when I said no, when I was clear with what was ok, pushing it multiple times... He didn't rape me, but he didn't seem to value me either... He did comfort me when I had a seizure, he seemed to care for me... He did more than that though... He took advantage of me at my most vulnerable moment and went beyond what was comfort to what became assault.
I didn't want what he did to me, but my no didn't matter to him.
