DID, it's not confirmed, but have CPTSD

[tyme]

That was very refreshing to read your post in that you have set a timeline and a goal to work towards. I feel that this is what can really keep people going and keep them motivated despite things being so tough @Just 

I look forward to hearing about it.

Hi @Cali_Rose @Blackbird11 @balance37 

[Blackbird11]

Hi @tyme 

Hi @Just sounds very positive, glad you've found something that might help. I too look forward to hearing your progress.

[balance37]

Hi @Just 

I'm glad to hear you have been given some answers as to your diagnosis, so you are able to do the "work" tailored to your situation. I'm glad you have also found some useful resources, and that you have given yourself a time period to work on what you need. I would add, however, not to put too much pressure on yourself to achieve a goal. Working on yourself and particular if it's based in trauma can take a lot of time. I have been in therapy for over 5 years and am not even close to moving beyond surface level talk of things that have happened for me. I use to beat myself up about that and think that I wasn't doing enough, or I wasn't improving fast enough, but it takes the time it takes. Everyone is different. It sounds like finding out about the OSDD has been a little scary, but ultimately empowering for you, as you have goals you can now work towards. Is this something you are able to share with your therapist, or do you prefer working on it at your own pace and time? All the best, too! 😊

[balance37]

Also, it is helpful that a dissociative disorder has been ruled into the mix for you, because it changes so much about the treatment approach when you suffer from dissociation as a main symptom, if it is ignored.

[Just]

I always come back. Lol, thanks. I'm going to ask. When a person has just been triggered. Really badly, as they leave the therapist office. And the road outside is hard to take in. Is this derealization. You can't tell if the cars are coming or not. If you should walk fast across in the hope it's all ok. It just doesn't register and the road is getting wider and white. Roads and not white. But the other side is safer than this side because the person who triggered you is on this side. So U just hope you have it right and go for it. So my Question is Derealization? I think so, but just looking for input if it could be anything else. @tyme 

[Just]

P.s not on any medication so can rule this out.

[Just]

Yes, I started with a Doctor back in 2019. But have only just worked out I dissociate. Just goes to show best to change doctors. I've got used to teaching myself now. @balance37  p.s get worried for my safety. 

[balance37]

It could be a combination of derealization and/or depersonalisation ( a part of the dissociation spectrum). Very common with C-PTSD, in my experience.

I'm glad you have found a psychiatrist who was able to validate your experiences. I find it often does help to get a second opinion, including for physical illness.

[Just]

@balance37 I have been having trouble with my body of late. Hope to get some results from GP soon. It's difficult to write, a month or so ago. Around the time I got my latest diagnosis of OSDD. I started getting sharp stabbing pains up inside me. I was loosing red liquid later that week for back passage. Now red from vagina as well. My period s stopped years ago. So not that. Can your brain and body remember so much that it has symptoms along time after the trauma.? 

[balance37]

I'm glad you have seen a GP in regards to this because it sounds like quite an urgent issue that needs to be addressed. OSDD possibly might
exacerbate physical symptoms, but wouldn't be the cause of what you have described, in my opinion. Best to speak to a medical professional