Running

[tyme]

You poor thing... that's poison to the soul @avant-garde 

[avant-garde]

@tyme she had only just met me! And she tells me that God will work in you to forgive them and to love yourself. 

Dude! I know! What do you think he's been doing! 

I mean gah! It just makes me so angry! Recovery is not cookie cutter! 

Me?!? I am a testament to God's love, grace, mercy and power! 

She knows nothing about me!

[tyme]

Hey @avant-garde , how are you feeling today?

[avant-garde]

@tyme 

I met with my social worker today, she helped. 

Finished my painting

Put up with idiot drivers

I would call today a win

[tyme]

Nice @avant-garde . Glad to hear today is a 'win'. 

Calm after the storm?

That was me today too.. I just indulged in self-care and chatted to a therapist.

[avant-garde]

@tyme 

Or maybe just the eye of it? 

It'll get harder the closer the police interviews get

[tyme]

I can hear that you have been proactive about the police interviews @avant-garde . Did they prep you in anyway to make it easier for you? I know you mentioned a support person going with you?

Also, I'm about to hop off, so if I don't talk to you, I'll see you over the weekend.

[avant-garde]

@tyme 

no, I'm an old hand at this, done it a dozen times before

Yeah I have a friend who has gone with me before

[tyme]

Even though you have done it many times before, I'm mindful that it still may not be 'easy' @avant-garde 

Fingers crossed it all goes well for you.

[avant-garde]

TW: child loss

Content/trigger warning

I named them all you know... the set of twins... the triplets... it helped me to grieve them... to still grieve them...

Now the newest baby in our church has the same name as my tenth... a dear little boy... a month from when I remembered him... on the anniversary of the twins memory... I wish it was different...

45 names... and I don't know how many unnamed... how many miscarriages... I may never know...

 *curls up in a ball in the corner*