Running

[tyme]

Hugs @avant-garde 

Thinking of you.

[avant-garde]

Hey @Ru-bee 

[Ru-bee]

Hi @avant-garde how are you?

[avant-garde]

@Ru-bee still recovering from yesterday, how are you?

[Ru-bee]

I'm here if you want to talk about it @avant-garde 

I've been having a bit of a heavy morning but I'm okay

[avant-garde]

@Ru-bee 

Going into it isn't going to change the naive reality of my church, too emotionally dense to cater for the different like me...

I lost my temper last night about it and was very blatantly honest about what I was feeling after church last night...

This is why I run away, it stops insensitive remarks from inconsiderate jerks who think "just do this and you'll be happy".

I'm currently working on enforcing my boundaries. Church leadership and authoritative mannerisms trigger me and so it's learning to enforce my boundaries when triggered... it's just hard... but I'm sick of leaving church in tears because I'm unable to enforce my boundaries and have consequently been railroaded by other peoples opinions of my emotions and my recovery...

[Appleblossom]

Hi @avant-garde 

I hope I am not interrupting. 

Churches and boundaries are pretty complicated to negotiate, partly to do with different concepts about community and love… I try to be careful about Christian concept of agape…. a Greek word.

 I am having similar difficulties this week in my church. If you want to chat …

take care 

apple

[Ru-bee]

I'm proud of you for working on those boundaries @avant-garde it's definitely not easy to do!

[avant-garde]

@Appleblossom 

I will get back to this, I just finished sending a message to my elder, not the one from last night and now need to get moving, my best friend and I are going to see a movie and that message was a mammoth task. But I will reply to you. 

@Ru-bee 

Thank you, it's not easy but I'll get there, the statement poster is helping.

[avant-garde]

@Jynx missed talking to you