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[BlueBay]

Hi @Jynx thank you as always for your support. I'm sorry I didn't reply yesterday. I've gone from shock to anger to now hopeless and my anxiety is high. I can't even think of what I'll do when I go home. I am trying to stay in the present, but at times this huge anxiety comes out of nowhere and it hits me. 


@Shaz51 @Anastasia @Snowie @frog @oceangirl @Owlunar @Emelia8 

you have been a great support. Even though I have a few close friends, who by the way haven't even msg me to see how I am, you all understand. I know that if one of my friends was in my position I would be msg them. My mum has been ringing daily. My sons haven't even msg. I know they care but it would be nice. 

the thing that is upsetting me is Tuesday is my birthday and I'm in here. Although I'm allowed to go out for a while it's not the same. But I guess this is where I need to be right now. Cake can wait. 
my cholesterol is 8.5 and dr is concerned so I'm niw on meds but it's causing pains in stomach. Not sure id it's a flare up of diverticulitis or side effect. Dr is coming to see me this morning. 
Still feeling a bit fragile but it's early days. 
Once I get hime I'm going to fo yoga weekly and walk daily. I need to lose weight. 
and the scary and anxious part - I need to look for work. 
I'm trying to hold onto some hope thst things will work out. It's the uncertainty that's scaring me. 

[Anastasia]

Oh @BlueBay 

You have a lot to think about. I'm sorry people irl haven't reached out. Sadly people don't know what to say. I hear from no one irl. Think they assume my boys fine and life is roses! 

Please try to focus on today, one day at a time. Focusing on the future, a new job etc will bring anxiety because you can't work on that today. Does that make sense? 

Hugging you tightly @BlueBay, hoping the pain eases and you see your doc shortly.

Love and hugs to you 🤗❤️

[Snowie]

Good morning @BlueBay 

Hoping today goes a little better for you.

Thinking of you lots hon.

💜💜💜💜💜

[BlueBay]

hi @Snowie @Anastasia @Shaz51 @frog @Owlunar @Emelia8 @MDT 

I think I have a flare up of diverticulitis. The medical doctor looking after me while here was called to check on me today. I started having abdo pain and thought it was a side effect from cholesterol meds. But he thinks it's diverticulitis. He's ordered an X-ray tomorrow and will also call my gastroenterologist to come and see me. At least I'm in the right place at the moment. if it's that I may need to stay in a bit longer. But will wait and see. 
hubby came this morning for a while. 
I finished the headband for littke A. It's so cute I hope she likes it. 

[Snowie]

I hope its not for your sake @BlueBay but at least you are in the right place.

Take care of you sweetheart. Good night 💕💗

[Owlunar]

It's natural to be anxious @BlueBay  but there is something to remember - it is so obvious but it's absolutely true

The only thing is life that is certain is that life is uncertain.

How often I will say in jest - Aw - I did not wake up this morning expecting that would happen" - but this is life. Most events are run-of-the-mill - losing your job like that moreso - a bit bigger. And it's true there are worse things and then there are the surprises - that's the way it is

Don't worry about the future - you can't be sure of what will happen - and it seems to me that you have a long way to go with your health. Anyone who gives you advice to the contrary doesn't know how ill you have been and how exhausting going to work has been for you. Then add looking for something else is a tall order right now.

We are hear for you and we certainly understand you - as far as possible we do anyway.

Take heart - you will be okay. 

Dec

[Snowie]

Morning @BlueBay 

Hoping today goes well for you hon.

Take care of you

Lots of love and hugs 💌💌💌💌

[BlueBay]

Thanks lovely @Snowie 

Had X-ray before. Hopefully my specialist will call in to see me. And also my psych. 
have a psychology appt this afternoon which I can't wait. I need to vent. 
at the moment I'm in the courtyard getting some fresh air. It's a bit fresh but the sun is out. Listening yo music. Not ready for group therapy xxxoo

hi @Owlunar @Anastasia @Shaz51 @frog @Emelia8 

[BlueBay]

This is the headband I knitted for littke A.

@Snowie @Anastasia @Owlunar @Shaz51 @Emelia8 

[Emelia8]

Its beautiful @BlueBay ... how could little A not love it. 👍💗😊  Especially when its hand made by her beloved Nonna.