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[NatureLover]

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@Snowie wrote:

ECT number 5 tomorrow. I wish I could say it was making a difference but it isn't yet. Doctor says I need 9 sessions so that is another week and a half in hospital. I am scared it won't make a difference, I am scared nothing will change and most of all I am scared that this will be it.

Today has been tiring, emotional and triggering.

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Really sorry to hear that you're feeling so despondent, @Snowie 😞

Sending you wishes that the ECT will make a difference very soon and your fears will ease 

[Snowie]

Thanks @NatureLover 💕💕

[Snowie]

Is anyone around?

[outlander]

@Snowie 🧡 i am around

[Emelia8]

Yes @Snowie  ... I'm here, for what its worth.  I have seen you around a number of threads tonight, but it seems fairly quiet right now.  How are you doing today?

[Snowie]

@Emelia8 @outlander it does seem quiet tonight

I am contemplating getting my meds early and trying to sleep. I got next to no sleep last night even with meds helping. 

Things just seem like they are on a continuous roundabout.

[Emelia8]

Ummm yeah ... I get that @Snowie .  For me it feels much the same ... a roundabout, which I cannot seem to get off.

[Snowie]

I'm sorry it is much the same for you too @Emelia8 

I don't know how to get off it.

I think its best if I just go

Thinking of you both lots @Emelia8 @outlander and hoping tomorrow is a little brighter for you both.

[Emelia8]

I'm sorry too @Snowie .  I guess I'm just feeling very worried and negative right now.  My apologies I am unable to boost your mood in any way tonight. 

I hope your night meds enable a decent sleep.  I expect you have ECT tomorrow morning?  Hope it goes well.

Emelia

[outlander]

yeah i definently get that feeling too @Snowie its not so great.
Has something in particular set it off tonight?