Functioning with ADHD

[creative_writer]

@Jynx some people do find their MH and physical wellbeing improves by focusing on overall picture. The thing is, I’ve been on meds for a while and in therapy, but I feel a bit trapped. Maybe I need something else along with it. I’m just not sure. I still get rough patches. Sometimes I wish I could describe it, but I lose my words and I don’t know how to process. Trauma work is good, but there is still a lot trapped inside. Maybe I need movement, I don’t know.

@tyme what kind of little jobs do you do? I’m interested in mental health social work, though I am applying widely

[tyme]

I work with kids, I teach sunday school, I work in disability, I do research.... @creative_writer So yeah... I'm everywhere. 

[Jynx]

I feel that @creative_writer - kinda like your brain blocks access to the words that are creating emotions? I think mine does that too. Sometimes it's like my throat closes up and I go nonverbal for a few minutes until I either cry, or it dissipates. 

Movement always good, regardless of whether it is specific to trauma work or not!! Sometimes it does feel like energy moves through and out when I workout - especially like, when I am 'running emotionally'. As in, I let myself fall into the emotion and let it motivate the movement. Sometimes it's the only way to release my pent up rage. 

What sort of trauma therapy have you already done? I forget, sorry 😅 I have just been looking a bit into EMDR lately and wondered if that was something you'd already done? 

Oh hello, relentless passage of time 😅 Alas, I will bid you night night for now and maybe catch up tomorrow 😊

[creative_writer]

@tyme having those different job sounds lovely!

@Jynx maybe it’s a ND thing. I just need to figure out adjustments I may need to make to exercise, probably try to ask a personal trainer. Though I can’t afford personal training long term, might be doable short term. I did EMDR with my last psych, that may have been the time I got the most relief in sessions with that psych. It allowed me to not feel the pressure to talk. I didn’t find talk therapy as effective with her. Talk therapy is lot better with my current psych, but I think it helps that my current psych also focuses on what I can do to get more meaning in my life, as opposed to just talking about trauma. My current psych does not do EMDR.

I hope today has been a good day for you 💖

[Jynx]

@creative_writer amazing how different an experience it can be, hey! Glad to hear you are seeking meaning and stuff with your current psych. Bit of the ol' existential lens!! Not used often enough imo. 

How's your arvo going? I am sipping coffee and soaking up some sun 🌞

[creative_writer]

@Jynx she is encouraging me to connect with others and go to social events (whether virtual or in person). Right now I feel more comfy with virtual, might take me a while to get the hang of it. The thing is, just talking about it over and over again keeps me stuck. Maybe it de-sensitises some people, but just not me. I felt like my last psych wanted me to talk about things in more details. My current psych won’t push me if I don’t want to talk about flashbacks in detail.

I’ve just had some ginger tea. I’m probably going to have a chill afternoon. I had an Arabic reading class this morning, applied for a job (though I don’t think it was my best application), had physio. Had lunch and watched TV when I came back. I’m just feeling a bit sleepy after lunch, so may try to lie down for a bit, though falling asleep will be hard, can’t sleep with the light. Sipping coffee and sunshine sounds nice. I think we have been lucky that we haven’t had that dreadful gloomy winter this year so far

[Jynx]

@creative_writer aww that sounds awesome!! Got anything lined up? Do you join into any of SANE's groups at all? 

I'd be sleepy too, sounds like a full on day! Much on this evening? 

Yeah I reckon, haha my yard hasn't even flooded once! 

[creative_writer]

@Jynx I don’t have much lined up, my brain is too tired now. I have tried attending SANE guided support group thingies, but I have been forgetting lately 🤦🏻‍♀️. I don’t know how I seem to do it.

It has been a full on day for me, but I wish I had more capacity to do things. Maybe some day

[Jynx]

@creative_writer Inconvenient timing maybe? You could set an alarm reminder! But maybe it's not your jam and that's ok too. 

Aye, hard not to compare ourselves to others and their capacity at times but... we can only do what we can do hey. 

[creative_writer]

@Jynx maybe, I’ve also been under a lot of stress lately, it’s easier to forget.

It’s hard not to compare yourself to others. There are so many expectations placed on young people. I think the pent up frustration has also been adding to everything. I’ve been struggling for so long and I’ve been trying to get answers, but it’s hard, people think you’re too young and stressed. Specialists have ridiculous wait times, you know how long I’ve been waiting to see a rheumatologist, I’ve been waiting for forever