Functioning with ADHD

[creative_writer]

@AuntGlow I don’t think my pdoc was happy about it. I just did what I thought I had to survive. I have bipolar, I know there is a vulnerability with that. Maybe it did make me more unstable? But it helped me feel better for a short period of time. Now he has given me something to manage my anxiety levels. I can’t use the other thing I was using before, no supplies.

I feel kind of stupid in a way. I feel like other people need more help. I feel like I should get over these urges and be able to let go of intrusive trauma thoughts. I can’t seem to do it.

I just had safe food, brown rice, chicken and beetroot. I hope you were able to have something to eat

[creative_writer]

I feel awful. Sometimes the thoughts come. Do I matter? Too many thoughts. I’ll try to sleep, it’ll help me stay safe

[tyme]

Sorry to hear about these thoughts. They sure sound intense. @creative_writer 

I hope and pray you will come to understand that really, you DO matter.

[AuntGlow]

Your need for support is just as valid as anyone else's @creative_writer, we all need help in one way or another. These things aren't easy to simply let go of. 

Ooh! Did you enjoy it at all? Sounds very nourishing! I ate some salad with spicy sesame dressing and vegan duck (I am not vegan, I just like vegan food)

Re: "I feel awful. Sometimes the thoughts come. Do I matter? Too many thoughts. I’ll try to sleep, it’ll help me stay safe"

I think sleeping is a really good idea, these thoughts can be relentless, so sometimes slowing down and getting rest is the best thing for regulation. 

Let me know how you are feeling tomorrow morning. ☺️💛

[creative_writer]

@tyme and @AuntGlow I’m exhausted, it’s taken so much of my energy to leave the house today. I’m thinking of starting the new meds tonight. I’m far from being okay, but that’s just my life at this moment in time

[AuntGlow]

Helloooo @creative_writer,

Good on you for getting up and out! I hope you're taking things slowly and not pushing yourself too hard. Do you ever notice yourself feeling re-energised once you've started moving?

What's on your agenda for today anyway? ☺️💛

[creative_writer]

@AuntGlow I don’t feel re-energised, quite the opposite. I’m fatigued and migrainey. I guess I’m not doing it correctly. Sometimes leaving the house is unavoidable.

I’m going to rest up for the rest of the day. I don’t have it in me. I’ll ask someone to pick up my meds for me, I’m too tired to do it myself

[AuntGlow]

Not at all! It just sounds to me like there's something that needs a little extra attention here... do you know what that might be? @creative_writer 

I am glad you are asking for help where it's needed, that's so important. 

I hope you have a lovely evening - I will be back tomorrow, it would be nice to chat more then! 💕

[creative_writer]

@AuntGlow probably life living with chronic pain and fatigue. I get super bad motion sickness. Car rides and trains make me feel worse, and it’s unavoidable because you have to travel. Maybe I don’t have my migraines adequately controlled, and not having them adequately controlled means I am more sensitive to triggers. I don’t think the pain helps with anxiety. Nor does anxiety help with migraines. Have racing thoughts right now.

I am lucky to have family. My dad is happy to pick it up.

Having self-loathing thoughts. Can’t stop internalising the times I’ve been called lazy. I try hard but it’s not always enough for people. I get mental health takes lots of work, but sometimes I feel like I’m hitting walls. I can’t help wonder, am I the problem?

[creative_writer]

@AuntGlow I hope you have a lovely evening too 💖