Coping with the repercussions of a suicide attempt

[Sparky79]

I won't go into too much detail, but obviously I survived (and I'm currently receiving treatment from my clinical psych),  when one of my loved ones received my farewell message, they took it upon themselves to attempt suicide also and are currently in intensive care. 

I'm lost at the moment, I wish I hadn't tried to escape or hadn't sent good bye emails to a few cherished people.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated,

[Ru-bee]

@Sparky79 firstly, I'm glad that you're getting the care you need right now, and that you've been able to reach out here and share what's happening for you.

What an incredibly hard and sad situation. Reading through this really highlighted to me how strong our belief can be in those dark moments that we wouldn't be missed, or that others might even be better off without us, but of course that's not true.

I might not have any advice, but I do want to let you know that we're here for you. My thoughts are with you and your loved one too.

[Sparky79]

Thankyou

[rav3n]

hey @Sparky79 just read your story. my heart is with you, i'm so sorry you've had to experience this. 

i can't imagine the pain and shock you must've felt. but i am really glad that you are safe at the moment, and that you both are getting support. the advice, i have for you is - take things one small step at a time. there's so much that happened and so many thoughts/feelings floating around, which can make things feel overwhelming. but just focus on lil goals each day, will help that load feel lighter. i can see so much strength in you, and you deserve kindness too. us humans, we make mistakes, we fall, but we can always get back up - you got this. 

sending you gentle hugs 💙

[rav3n]

hey @Sparky79 i see that you removed your recent post - and i totally respect your choice. i just wanted to reach out and say that we're here for you, and still rooting for you. 

i know this journey isn't easy, and there's a lot of things on your plate - but you can do this. it will take time, it might be hard and uncomfy, but i truly believe you'll get there. and i'm glad you've got some supports on your side too 💙

[Sparky79]

I had typed up an update, but I had second thoughts after I'd posted it. 

Thankyou for your kind words.

[Jynx]

@Sparky79 just popping in super quickly, cos I just wanted to say that I don't think an attempt is a 'selfish' thing to do, nor do I think that it is fair for you to be blamed and shamed in this way. I'm really sorry that you have not gotten much compassion or understanding for what you were going through to have been pushed to that point. 

Here for you 💜

[Sparky79]

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[Oaktree]

@Sparky79 

Hi, many years ago now I attempted suicide (2009). It took me a long time to come to terms with the fact that I was still here afterwards. Take it easy on yourself and baby step it. You will have residual feelings floating around. I wanted to ask you how is your loved one now? I hope that they are doing better as well. I am now glad that I didn’t succeed and am still here. I have a lot to live for and look forward to. My eldest son is getting married in 2 years time. I wouldn’t have wanted to put my kids through all that at such a young age.