WayAhead

@Former-Member  Nobody wants to feel that way!  That's why it's not your fault.  Did you choose to be struggling like this?  Of course not!!  You just need some help to get better.  Just like we all do when our own fights start to really get on top of us.  Well, you lost control for a moment and yet you still managed to do what you needed to do and call for help.

So just keep telling your self that you are where you need to be right now and that's okay.  It may not be fun or even much easier where you are at the moment but it's important for you at the moment in order for you to start that road to not feeling like this any more.