WayAhead

Hi @Adge  I have lived in a similar situation with bad neighbours so I'm feeling you on that one.  I used to spend 99% of my time locked in and frequently vigilant, checking windows etc.  Drug dealers on one side and DV on the other.  I lived like that for 11 years.  I was so afraid of change that I was really stuck there.  Thank goodness that has changed (nearly 3 years ago).  It's not until you get out that you can really see how much you needed to.  Or at least that's how it was for me.  Have you researched any possibilities to move elsewhere?  It was incredibly hard to do it, to make the leap, but I've thrived and not just survived since moving.  

Sending warmest wishes and picturing you sitting out with your birds - maybe there's a time of day when the others are quiet - like around dawn?  I used to get up that early just to have some quiet time when I felt a bit safer.