Running

[Ru-bee]

Hey friend @avant-garde what's going on for you? Wanna talk about it?

[avant-garde]

@Ru-bee @Jynx 

"You had earlier indicated that you did not want the report investigated and didn’t have capacity to go through the process that police use to finalise a statement- so the investigation was filed."

"The police system shows that there have been a number of investigations which have occurred previously. Please understand that I am not in a position to ‘re-investigate’ those matters and they will not be dealt with again as those matters are now closed. You need to find suitable therapeutic means to achieve the closure that you need for those matters, and I know that you are doing your best to work through many complex issues."

Duck them! Just taking the decision from me all over again! They have me hope and dashed it!

[Ru-bee]

This is after they had you come in and make a statement? @avant-garde 

If this was going to be the outcome couldn't they have made it clear from the beginning rather than have you go through all of that only to hear that it's not going to be investigated?

I'm so sorry this is the outcome, though I'm really proud of the strength and courage you showed by going through this process 

[avant-garde]

@Ru-bee they didn't even finish the statement

They said for them to investigate I would need to be willing to go to court

I'm just a waste of time to them

[Ru-bee]

I'm sorry, I can only imagine how disheartening that would feel @avant-garde 

Have you spoken about it with your friend who came with you? 

[avant-garde]

@Ru-bee I screenshotted the entire email and sent it to her, she hasn't replied

[Ru-bee]

Okay @avant-garde well I'm here with you. I'm gonna make a cuppa and sit right here 

[avant-garde]

@Ru-bee I have my coffee now, talked to my case manager, she's going to check in on me again later.

[rav3n]

@avant-garde oh gosh yep, one-on-one defs sounds like the better option. did you meet up with this new person already (if so, how'd it go???)

i reckon the option 2 is something that takes time and practice. like you going out with this one person from church is a good way of practice - i'm assuming you agreed to see this person because you could potentially see yourself trusting them (hence low risk of invalidation) - so in a way, by reaching out and putting yourself out there in these 1-on-1 settings, you're starting the development process!!

also just read your recent posts, i'm so sorry that they've said that to you. i feel so frustrated with the response they gave you, i can't even begin to imagine how this must make you feel. regardless, i too am so proud of you for trying and pushing through. your strength does not go unnoticed. 

[avant-garde]

@rav3n yes just finished, it went well actually... she happy to meet with me every 2 weeks... this is what I've wanted for such a long time... someone to give me the time of day...