@rav3n
I prefer busy, but not crazy busy
Yesterday... well any holiday... my childhood had horrible experiences of it...
holidays are not what you'd expect
there's no happiness or joy
there's no peace or love
there's never family
your mind becomes a battleground
of what is and what once was
images taking over
until you don't know what ways up
you smile and you joke
because that's what they expect
pretend to be happy
not all see through it yet
they think that you'll ask for help
but frankly, you won't
avoid the disappointment
when they fail to "show up"
"but that's not fair! you've got it wrong!"
"we're not really all that bad!"
sorry sweetheart, but you are
you don't miss what you've never had
you have all the best intentions
you maybe even have a heart
but you don't know my holidays
or just how hard they are
how even ever could you?
you would need empathy
you would know the battleground
of complex PTSD
but I wouldn't wish that on you
no I'm not that mean
but I pray that you would realise
and please reach out to me
see the pain within my eyes
feel the hurt within my being
hear the wounds within my words
love without your limits
reach the brokenhearted
show how much you care
exist beyond the difference
imagine living life there
