@greenpea
It is good you have qualified health support from a range of angles. We need to recognise out limits.
Sometimes we push ourselves too hard, and it is really not sensible for long term functioning. I was frightened of stepping onto the train and did it very slowly and carefully. Cos I thought I might fall through the gap! I am glad I did that study, I needed to get out of the house, and to show my son, with all his school refusal, that mum had deadlines and teachers etc. I showed him the library etc. It took longer than normal and I had to get a disability extensions, but it gave me a positive, part time goal for 3 years, and I finished it.
Often I put the book in front of my face and could not take a thing in. Had to re read things a lot etc, but doing nothing would have been worse. Its just the way I am, my grandfather built his house, then renovated it for my mother even though he was not well at the end of his life. Little projects help life unfold, its about picking the ones that will do the best for you over time. We cant control a lot, but working within that area that we can control is liberating. I do not beat myself up about taking long for a task. I knew I was battling against the odds.
The only course I have not completed, was a small business course, where the teacher was telling me I had to time everything, and it just got up my nose. Partly also I was often interrupted being a mum and all that. Guys need to get Real.
