Totally overwhelmed and frozen with fear

[Poppy68]

Hello, iam not sure how to start, I have been diagnosed with central nervous system exhaustion,and a complicated depression combined with deep grief. I was a carer for my sister who had an intellectual disability, she died from cancer just over a year ago, at the same time I was taking care of my mum who had health issues as well as grieving her daughter, she died a few months ago, I am now facing having to sell her house which will mean moving, my older sister is supportive but my brother does not recognise mental health issues in any way, he just screams at me to grow up ,get over it ,it's happened move on. Iam seeing a psychologist that is helping but I feel like any progress iam making is being undone by my family. He did the barest minimum for the last six years, and wasn't there for all the sleepless nights and ugliness of palliative care, he would have to be the most unevolved human I have ever met . My problem at the moment is I can't move in any direction, drowning in sadness and negativity, cannot see any future other than loneliness isolation and wondering what the hell is the point in doing anything.

[Jynx]

Oh wow @Poppy68 that's so overwhelming, and I am so very sorry for your loss. 

I can totally understand not having a clue where to turn to next. You've been put through the wringer with big emotions and that makes it so much harder for us to make choices and act decisively in our lives, especially when it's been ongoing, and there's other stress to deal with along the way. 

It can get so overwhelming that we end up feeling like we have no other way out. I am glad that you decided to try to find some connection and community here, cos you definitely don't deserve to go through this alone 💜

[Ocean4]

Hi - oh my goodness you sure have a lot going on. Please know that there is hope out there. It may not feel like it right now by the sounds of it. I dont know why some people are dealt such a really bad hand. I can only let you know that I am thinking of you and hope things come better soon. I can only suggest to look at things in a smaller picture and really celebrate any small achievements rather than look at all the things going on in your bigger picture. 

Stay strong and try and find one or two things that will bring a smile to your face.