Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

Oh where are you?

Are you okay @tonys 

[ENKELI]

thanks again @tonys.

I had a public school education. Back then my brother and I were the only ones at my primary who came from a single parent family. We had no TV so my mum used to grab the dictionary and read out words while we had to guess the meaning. I kid you not. My bro and I loved it. We grew up poor and it was the best childhood ever. We had family and that was more important to us than the latest game or toy. My dad turned his back on us when he shacked up with his mistress. I was 5. Explains my overwhelming fear of rejection, yet I haven't learned how to prevent it happening even xx years later.

I always loved English, grammar, reading and that helped a lot. 

If I write anything you will be the first to see it 🙂

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 the game is called Immortal Love, The Price of a Miracle. It's #2 in a series. I subscribe to a game forum called Big Fish games.

I like to play these games when I need time to decompress and not think. Plus I've done a lot of diamond paintings lately and I needed something else to do with my time 😁

[Birdofparadise8]

Ah okay. Is everything alright @ENKELI 

[tonys]

Oh I'm good thankyou  @Birdofparadise8   Just on the last leg of a long hospital holiday.  Nothing too serious at all.  It just gets busy in hear around this hour.  You know,   Taking obs.  dressing changes.

All the usual hospital huff n puff.   Be back home next week.

How are you going.   @Birdofparadise8 .  Now having asked it'll be late eve before my visitors  stop raiding my lolly jar n go.   Hope that's OK  mate                                         tns..

[Birdofparadise8]

Did you have an operation or something @tonys 

I'm alright, just reading a book.

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 thanks for asking lovely,  I'm just worried about bills and stuff. Not having money is frustrating. 

I'd like to be able to take some more time while I work through everything but can't afford to. 

I am still crying for what feels like no reason most days.

How are you going, aside from your mum dramas?

[Birdofparadise8]

I'm the same worried about money @ENKELI 

I hope I get a job by the time uni starts at the end of Feb. 

Nights have been hard for me, but I'm trying to keep going.

[ENKELI]

Yes nights are hard for me too @Birdofparadise8. 

Especially hard when you're alone. 

I hope 🙏 we both get jobs soon. Have you had any other prospects?

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah, it's very lonely at the moment @ENKELI 

Prospects in what why?