Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

I don't know if I can. 

She was pretty dismissive. I feel worse than before we talked. I didn't like how she kept saying I should eat this or that. It just makes me feel worse. She has very limited knowledge of EDs so that probably doesn't help. 

Thanks though @Rockdog 

[Birdofparadise8]

Not good at all. It's because I'm in Tassie until Monday, and then she has training on Tuesday and Wednesday, so we can't talk. We would have spoken then, but we can't now. She doesn't work till the 16th, so I guess it will have to do @fluffylight 

I don't know why I'm so upset right now. 

[fluffylight]

Yes it does sound like she was dismissive and doesn't carry a lot of knowledge on Eds @Birdofparadise8

It's good to recognise that for yourself. The toughest thing is when someone on the outside welcomes themself into our already struggling headspace and tells us what to do when it doesn't sit right.. I can hear that its not feeling great 💛

[Birdofparadise8]

I know she was just trying to help, but I feel she was going around the wrong way about it. 

She has been such a great support with my depression, uni, moving to vic and all that, but maybe EDs isn't her thing. 

It's like telling a horse to drink but they don't. She can keep telling me to eat all these foods but I won't. 

I'm upset over it. I just feel a bit I'm not sure how to say it @fluffylight 

[creative_writer]

@Birdofparadise8, ED are very complex, i feel like it’s hard to understand if one hasn’t experienced it themselves. I totally get the frustration of when people tell you to eat X. I feel like society emphasises weight, healthy eating and exercising very heavily, it’s hard to ignore all the content that we are bombarded with. People are first and foremost judged by their appearances. I hope with support you are able to navigate around things and improve your relationship with food.

@fluffylight, I honestly think it’s easier to focus at uni than at home. I got more done yesterday than today. But it does take an hour to get there by public transport, I wouldn’t drive to the city

[creative_writer]

Hi again @Rockdog, how are you doing?

[Birdofparadise8]

Thank you @creative_writer 

Exactly every second video is about someone's diet, what they eat in a day, how much or little to eat etc. 

It's just so hard to keep up with society and what people expect of us. 

I wish she didn't keep drilling off how I need to eat. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to tell her when I speak to her again. I don't even know why I'm upset. 

[fluffylight]

I see that you are holding so much pain and it is unfair on you that you had a conversation that made you feel even worse @Birdofparadise8 It does sound like ED isn't her thing and she has strengths that fit more towards other aspects of your life 🙂
Please take care of yourself you are deserving of feeling better 💛

@creative_writer Brings up a good point
and @creative_writer good luck with rest of the week with uni!

Sending lots of light to you both 💛 I am off for the night

fluffylight x

[Birdofparadise8]

Thank you @fluffylight 

Have a good night. 

[Birdofparadise8]

No, I've just twice lost my spot in the queue with Butterfly foundation. I've been trying for over an hour. I can't stop crying.