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[Aegis]

@creative_writer 

Your best is good enough.

That can happen for sure, I usually try make sure I'm a bit easier on myself after a session because it can bring stuff up. 

Absolutely, two things can be true, right? I like that you're able to recognise that, yes things have been hard, and you're allowed to be sad about what could have been whilst also reminding yourself of your growth and be hopeful for what will be. 

I'll be logging off now but take care and reach out in the forum again if you need to chat!

[creative_writer]

@Aegis sometimes the emotions are stronger the day after as opposed to on the day. I take a while to process my emotions, I think it means I need to pace myself out on the same day and the next day.

I know both things are true. In life you lose and gain. I just hope one day it feels easier than it currently does. I’m learning to tolerate the uncomfortable emotions, thoughts and body sensation flashbacks

[creative_writer]

I am struggling to get out of this stuckness. I get lost in my mind and get chronic physical pain day in and out. I need to move forward but I can’t seem to. Days are too unproductive

[creative_writer]

They say to observe thoughts, but if they’re constant, I don’t know if you can make it work. It doesn’t work. I have reached a dead end. I may as well leave the forums for now, because this post isn’t recovery-oriented

[tyme]

What does it mean to observe your thoughts? @creative_writer I wondering how you percieve it - if you want to share.

[creative_writer]

@tyme it means to let them float and not get too consumed. Only thing is, how are you supposed to do that several hours per day?

[tyme]

Oooo, got it @creative_writer .

When you were saying that, I was thinking you meant getting acquainted with the thoughts you do can 'observe' them and not 'feel' them.

[creative_writer]

@tyme I would describe it as watching them like clouds. Sounds great in theory, but it’s hard to practice it for several hours each day. Since I’m too consumed by thoughts, I end up doing nothing. I wanted to change that nothing, but I’ve been trying for so long, I can’t seem to move

[creative_writer]

I want to know what I’m doing wrong that I am unable to shake off these strong emotions and why they keep sticking onto me

[creative_writer]

Maybe I’m missing something, but I can’t figure it out. I try to distract but it doesn’t seem to work. When I do things, my mind is elsewhere. I’m trying to not let it consume me but it ends up consuming me. Why isn’t distraction working like it’s meant to? They say staying busy helps, but what if it doesn’t work?