New chapter

[creative_writer]

These emotions feel stuck in me, I don’t even know how to get them out

[tyme]

Hey @creative_writer , how does it feel to get them out? I'm curious to understand.

[creative_writer]

@tyme if I knew how to get them out, I wouldn’t be stuck. I think that’s what I’m stuck with. I’m feeling paralysed, I need to do things instead of sitting here doing nothing. If I can get those emotions out, then maybe I can get on with my day and do what needs to be done

[creative_writer]

Maybe I don’t need to get them out. Maybe I just need a supportive person. But I’m used to not relying on people, I struggle to reach out to people, it’s not like I have many people in my life who I can reach out to even if I was to make the leap. I’m at a dead end. I guess I’ll just deal myself

[Aegis]

Hi  creative_writer,

I hear you, it can be really hard to reach out especially if we are use to handling things on our own. In saying that, you've taken a leap and reached out here so go you - that's big. 

Aegis

[creative_writer]

@Aegis it feels too hard to do anything right now and I’m wasting time. I feel guilty for wasting time. I feel sort of apathetic

[Aegis]

@Creative  I totally get that feeling of guilt. I usually find it keeps me stuck for longer though.

Putting myself down for the time I'm finding it hard to do anything just makes me feel worse, you know?

I have started trying to remind myself that rest is also productive.

Aegis

[creative_writer]

@Aegis maybe I’m tired, my head feels super heavy. I guess all we can do is what we can do. Everyone has a limit. I have done a few productive things today.

Maybe these emotions will get easier, but it’s sticking with me for now, it feels heavy

[Aegis]

@creative_writer

That makes sense to be honest, the being tired. You're 100% right, we can only do what we can do with what capacity we have in that moment. Exactly, we all have that point where we just need to stop and let ourselves catch our breath. We can't be at 100% all the time. 

There you go, you did do things, even with how you were feeling - that's not easy.

It can feel super heavy. Hopefully this community space reminds you that it can get easier and that you don't have to carry that weight on your own in the meantime. 

Aegis

[creative_writer]

@Aegis I know I’m doing what I can. I think my psych appointment triggered a lot of emotions, I’m just trying to navigate it. I know we all cope with feelings of loss and grief in our own ways, but it is hard. I’m grieving the life I could not have, but at the same time, I wouldn’t be me without having gone through everything I went through. I know
I wouldn’t be this empathetic, I wouldn’t have grown this much as a person without going through everything. But trauma is still hard nonetheless and I know it takes time