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27-06-2018 10:58 PM
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27-06-2018 11:34 PM
27-06-2018 11:34 PM
Re: I am struggling at the moment
I'm back @Teej
if you want to talk, or you want some company if you're still awake. Hugs my friend.
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28-06-2018 12:01 AM
28-06-2018 12:01 AM
Re: I am struggling at the moment
Bad teej won a bit. Have self medicated the crap out of myself. Am about to pass out but safe enough. So so sorry for being a shit. I am so pathetic. I am so not worthy of being here or responding to anyone. Love to you all. 💜
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28-06-2018 05:58 AM
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28-06-2018 06:26 AM
28-06-2018 06:26 AM
Re: I am struggling at the moment
@Teej I hope you found some peace and sleep last night. I read your post above and it sounds so much like the self critical, hurting side that lingers inside me too. That side is putting up a huge fight at the moment because we're doing heaps of work on self compassion while we're here and she's not going down without kicking and screaming. I know that side of yours is very loud sometimes and I get how hard it can be to live with it.
For you
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28-06-2018 07:47 AM
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28-06-2018 11:24 AM - edited 28-06-2018 11:32 AM
28-06-2018 11:24 AM - edited 28-06-2018 11:32 AM
Re: I am struggling at the moment
Oh @Teej, feel for you, ya not alone. Must be a full moon or something, everyones stretched. Hope i'm not being too tough saying, but ya gotta stop putting yourself down. Would you ever say to a friend:
"Bad girl" or
"medicate the crap out of yourself" or
you're "being a shit" or
"youre so pathetic" or
"ya so not worthy of being here" ...
OH MY GOODNESS TEEJ!
Whose voice is that?
Maybe an abusive childhood memory? or our all too familiar BLACKDOG - growelling away, but Teej, these are not you, THESE ARE LIES, not you.
I'm overwhelmed with negative thoughts atm too - we really do have to search for the stars in the night sky, behind the passing clouds, look for / listen to the good, its there. I need to do this today too.
Hey, do you ever get buzzing whistles in ears?
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28-06-2018 03:00 PM
28-06-2018 03:00 PM
Re: I am struggling at the moment
Thanks @Former-Member, @outlander, @CheerBear, @Faith-and-Hope, @Sans911, @Former-Member
I slept until about an hour ago. Slept through my therapist appointment 😳.
Im ok, not out of control like last night. Going to spend some time outside and get some sun. Very teary atm but I’m much safer when the tears come and anger leaves. Hardest part is that I can’t get past anger still without switching it off in an unhealthy slightly dangerous way. But oh how 15 plus hours of deep sleep, no dreams and nothing but black help to reset a bit.
hugs to you all 💜🤗
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28-06-2018 03:48 PM
28-06-2018 03:48 PM
Re: I am struggling at the moment
Some time out in the sun sounds like a good idea
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28-06-2018 04:07 PM
28-06-2018 04:07 PM
Re: I am struggling at the moment
Afternoon @Teej
Letting go of anger is hard hey? I have trouble crying anyway, even more so with needing to release anger. It all gets stuck in my chest and throat.