Functioning with ADHD

[creative_writer]

@tyme I’m trying to breathe, will try magnesium cream.

I’m finding the racing thoughts aspect quite stressful. My thoughts are on full speed

[tyme]

Heya @creative_writer ,

Hope things are okay for you.

[creative_writer]

@tyme looking back at today, I didn’t achieve much. I did manage to shower at least and do some laundry. I have more laundry for the weekend, bed sheets have been lying on the floor for a while.

I’m still pretty heightened. Been going through meal prep stuff for the coming week, and got some of my supplements today. Time will tell if any of that makes a difference to my mental and physical health. Just not sure what else to do apart from self care, therapy and regular meds (I’m not up to taking anti-anxiety PRN again).

I hope today has been kind towards you 💖

[creative_writer]

I always feel like I’m not living life as I should be, I’m not the person I should be. I can’t seem to get there because I’m stuck in paralysis and it makes me feel useless. Easy isn’t always easy

[AuntGlow]

Hey @creative_writer, 

I totally get you on the task paralysis front, it can feel so debilitating... but I promise it isn't a 'life sentence', there are so many ways you can manage this, it just might take a little more time to experiment with what does and doesn't work for you. 💛

How do you feel life should look like for you exactly/who do you think you should be? 

[creative_writer]

@AuntGlow I know changes come slow. I’m finding it super hard to implement those changes. I need to be more productive with job searching. I also need to do more activities and engage with people. If I want to work, I need to have a certain capacity. My brain feels like mush right now, I just don’t have it in me to do anything but waste time. I’m too tired and overwhelmed to be able to come out of this task paralysis. People can say to “just get on with it”. Except I can’t just “get on with it”

[AuntGlow]

I understand, it isn't as easy as 'getting on with it', is it? I know you are doing everything you can within your capacity right now. Maybe we need to look at the easiest steps you can take? I think we have touched on this before. It may also be helpful to look at what you need to feel supported in taking these steps forward. 

What do you think? @creative_writer 💛

[creative_writer]

@AuntGlow I can do self care and engage in more positive self-talk. It still doesn’t take away the debilitating aspect of this overwhelm. When it would go to this point I would normally rely on PRN (when the old one worked), but that’s not an option right now

[AuntGlow]

I get that, and I don't want to minimise the intensity of your experience at all - it must be so difficult right now. Do you have anyone in your world you could turn to for extra support tonight?

@creative_writer 

Oh, yes... is this something you would like to bring up with your pdoc when you can? 💛

[creative_writer]

@AuntGlow I could probably reach out to a friend, I’ve been putting off replying to her message, not sure why I do that.

I’ll discuss with my pdoc when I next see him. If it does escalate, I’ll try to get an earlier appointment. Having a migraine rn, light sensitivity is at its peak. Maybe migraines are more common among NDs, sensory sensitivities overlap