Functioning with ADHD

[creative_writer]

Sorry if this sounds much @tyme. But I need to function, and I’ll do what I need. I’m not getting much help from doctors regarding ADHD, so I’m going to take into my own hands and try to heal this myself. It would make my life a lot easier to have something slow down my brain and help me think clearer. It’ll help a ton with anxiety. Ultimately reduce rumination, because I can finally function. If I can’t do my unhealthy method, then herbs are the option I have

[creative_writer]

Will it get easier?

[tyme]

I spoke to a clinician recently who mentioned that part of the recovery is really delving into the trauma work. I'm not sure where things are with you, but I hear how challenging this vicious cycle is. @creative_writer 

[AuntGlow]

I hear you @creative_writer. OCD and ADHD are often coexisiting conditions, and oftentimes, practice with regulating helps a lot. I can see you are doing sooo much to support yourself - so let's acknowledge that effort. 💛

What are you finding most challenging in this present moment? Let's start there. ☺️

[creative_writer]

@tyme  dealing with trauma is necessary, but you got to address ADHD symptoms along with it, or it won’t work at the full capacity. Trauma affects ADHD symptoms and vice versa, that’s my opinion. Obsessive thinking is very common among ADHD individuals. Obsessive thinking can be a trauma response too, but adding ND adds another layer.

@AuntGlow I feel like I’ve gone backwards, last week was a good productive week. This week my brain has been more scattered. I am trying to go back to last week, but it’s hard. It is true there are so many co-existing conditions that feed off each other, that’s the tricky part.

@tyme@AuntGlow maybe I should mention I’ve been more ill this week, maybe that has affected everything. My eye is also going to take time to heal, doctor had to remove the infection. I clearly need a better immune system and healthier gut

[creative_writer]

I’ve heard that unmedicated ADHD is associated with increased addiction. How do you fight addiction while being unmedicated? My pdoc doesn’t want me medicated due to bipolar risk. I know I’m trying to compensate for my brain. I’m safe. Anyone know what to do, how can you naturally get a stimulant like effect that is healthy? @Jynx @tyme @AuntGlow. It’ll just make my life easier, and probably help me with trauma and ability to do things. It became obvious that the rumination may be elevated because I can’t do anything or function during a therapist session. If I am able to do more, I am less likely to spend more time ruminating. I feel tackling trauma won’t be adequate, I need to improve my ability to do things

[AuntGlow]

Hmm, I wonder what would happen if you fully allowed yourself to be scattered? I know that sometimes when I push against a feeling it can become bigger, especially if I am putting pressure on myself to be in a different place that I don't actually have the space for. How could you meet yourself where you're at today? 💛 @creative_writer 

[creative_writer]

@AuntGlow I realised that I need to be more consistent with amount of saffron I consume in a day, sometimes it’s hard to estimate as some strands are tinny and others a big. I just decided to take big equivalent strand when counting how much to use. Like small x strands is not going to add to big x strands. I feel like I may diverted from your post a bit. Anyways, I was having withdrawal like symptoms, even though I don’t even take much. I’ve been doing better today once I got my tea into my system.

I wish I could be okay with feeling scattered, but it’s hard. I mean I can get scattered so much so, I literally can’t do anything, not even a breathing exercise. It’s paralysing, but my brain needs that extra chemical support to get past the paralysis. Maybe some people with ADHD can make do with just psychotherapy, but it doesn’t work for me. Then I can somewhat function, and work better on my healing. Rumination doesn’t go away, but it becomes more manageable. I was able to do a 4 hour volunteer work shift today, it was exhausting, that I will admit. I’m always exhausted though, once I saw a dietician who thought I had a leaky gut, but haven’t been able to ever heal it. Maybe with the right support

[tyme]

Hey @creative_writer , I'm just catching up with the posts above. What do you think you can do to help you improve your ability to do things? Is there something in particular you want to be able to do?

[creative_writer]

@tyme it’s probably going to have to be a holistic approach. I feel the having tea will help me do others things to help myself. It’s easier to engage in relaxation exercises and therapist if I can concentrate. I also have physical health symptoms, still trying to figure out what to do about that. It’s mostly being able to do everyday things, like prayers, reading, job applications, volunteer work, creative writing, exercise and other daily activities. I want to work up to being able to work, I feel like my mind isn’t there for work right now