@Glisten people say Bipolar is progressive, but I certainly don’t want it to be that way. I’m hoping with treatment I’m able to prevent worsening. ADHD has become more prominent with age. Adulthood is more demanding.
You need to make a mental note of everything, including medical appointments and payments. I found studying really hard last year with uni. Tertiary studies are very demanding, work is demanding. I’m not currently work right now, I’m unemployed and looking for work. There is so much competition, and society favours NTs. Now I’m struggling to manage job applications, keeping up with cleaning, and even relaxing activities. Everything feels too much effort. I don’t even know how I’ll manage a job, it’s so hard to concentrate. There are things I can do, instead I end up paralysed ruminating over things. I don’t want to ruminate but I feel incapable of functioning. It felt so bad today my brain entertained unhelpful coping strategy to manage distress, and I know it’s not something I can go to all the time because there are consequences. I’m okay though and safe, a single occurrence won’t do much, but repeated occurrences will.
Honestly I’ve decided moving forward, I’m going to rely on more saffron in my tea to help with organisation of the mind. It’s a way better option than using more risky methods
