Contemplating leaving the forums

[creative_writer]

@Dreamy I don’t blame anyone but myself. Finding that new safe place will be hard. I can’t forget yesterday. SANE no longer has a drop in service, so I can’t go there either. I don’t qualify for guided service since it hasn’t been a year. Even if I stay on the forums, it’ll never be the same again

[Dreamy]

@creative_writer i don't have any supports myself. 

Definitely something to chat with your psych about more i reckon, maybe they will have some ideas of how to get unstuck. You are doing a good job in recognising things and it's just a matter of finding a way past it all. 

[Dreamy]

@creative_writer I'm really sorry you are still feeling this way. I can understand how hard it can be. But you really are valued here and I've loved chatting to you. I hope you can find a way to stay, but if not I really do wish you the best ❤️

[creative_writer]

@Dreamy I feel like finances does make a huge difference. I only have 10 psych sessions covered by Medicare this year. I’ve agreed to see her every three weeks now. My private health cover is too low to cover psych sessions. Pdoc appointment aren’t exactly cheap either.

I haven’t been able to get a hold through email for further clarification, most likely because peer support workers were busy yesterday. Maybe I ask too many questions. It has certainly been lovely chatting with you too 💖

[Dreamy]

@creative_writer yeah finances definitely make a difference as these things really aren't cheap. 

Hopefully you can get some clarification today, i don't think you ask too many questions. I know it can get pretty busy behind the scenes at times. 

What have you got planned for the day? 

[creative_writer]

@Dreamy I’ve just realised something, one of my meds might be contributing to manic symptoms. How did I not realise earlier? I think I’m reacting badly to the AD.

I can always send another email if I don’t get a response.

The plan for today is simple. I will shower in a bit. I’ve done my scalp massage and coated my hair with an oil mixture I made myself. I need to wash it out in a bit. My skin and hair are annoying since they’re so dry, but I do enjoy my haircare and skincare routine.

I also have my pdoc appointment at 12pm. Afterwards I’ll have lunch and might watch something. I haven’t planned the rest of the day out yet.

Do you have much planned for today?

[Dreamy]

@creative_writer oh that could be having an impact, hopefully you can sort that out. 

That sounds nice and relaxing, well done. It's great that you have a good skincare and haircare routine.

Hope the pdoc appointment goes well. Hope you have something yummy for lunch and enjoy watching something after. 

I don't have any plans other than taking my puppy to the vet and picking something up from a place. 

[creative_writer]

@Dreamy my pdoc said I can go off that medication. It has a history of making me suicidal. Still agitated today, but not to the same level. It’s small progress, but it will take time.

I hope the vet visit goes okay and you are able to pick up what you need

[Dreamy]

@creative_writer ok that's good that you can stop that medication. It's great that you aren't feeling as agitated, small progress is still progress so  you are doing well.

The vet visit went well and I was able to pick up what I needed to. 

[creative_writer]

@Dreamy I’m feeling the emotions more right now. I don’t even know what to say, because I feel like all my words go into rumination territory. I can’t talk. I know they say it’ll pass.

Is your pup very young?