Christian Chat

[heartathome]

I'm sorry this has happened to you last night! @DownMoreThanUp . You were doing so well. Of course I'll be praying for you! I've raged on God many times before! I think he understands! I'm glad your wife was there for you!! 

'denying me salvation having become evil. Purposefully making me a vessel of dishonour' doesn't sound like God to me. I think our free will and humanness have consequences. I also think God uses our faith, trauma and mental health issues to help others. You do that very well! I can hear that you're not in that space at the moment. 

No wonder i have always hated myself, I can relate to the feeling. I've gotten to the point where I can say I'm okay but 'loving' me is beyond where I'm at. It may still come. I hope it comes to you, too!

Sending much love and hugs 💛

[DownMoreThanUp]

@heartathome Sorry the support button does not work but i press it ten thousand times if it did. Thanks praying, thanks comforting. All of this is so very long overdue.

My hope in my faith and love for God, myself and others is, that when i die to the BAD LIFE keeping God's love away willingly, as He did for me HIS GOOD LIFE, Jesus will be finally be fully formed in me.

One can always hope can they. (i say while the devil scorns and mocks me myself in him😎. (i can sure see the Beast and that The Great Harlot Babylon called religion on his back tormenting me even now their evil. - Revelation  chapter 17 & 18)) 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HS3pUgRKh_g&list=RDHS3pUgRKh_g&start_radio=1

[DownMoreThanUp]

@heartathome Thanks. i had a lot more to say but it seems i'm not allowed. DENIED HERE AS WELL.

@tyme @ENKELI @REDLINEZ750 @Blackcloud 

Sorry i'm going not coming back this palce makes me RAGE as well.

[heartathome]

Are you there @DownMoreThanUp I read your last post, but it has disappeared! I can't remember what you said but listened to the song. I loved it. He too has got a lot of questions to ask God when we get to Heaven! Did you take the post down? I'm not even sure if you can do that. I reported it as a technical issue. 

[heartathome]

Take time out @DownMoreThanUp ! I don't want you to say or do something you'll regret later on. It could have been something to do with IT and not from the moderators. I'd email and ask them why when you've cooled down a bit.

Is there something that helps you calm down? What about a cold/ cool shower while you sit/ stand and scream or maybe go for a walk. Usually under rage is hurt. Be gentle with yourself! I hope you'll be back! 💛

[DownMoreThanUp]

@heartathome Sorry sis i got overcome for a bit. Been a bit hot here

wrote a poem about it using the awesome song of White Stripes 'Seven headed nation', i changed the wording just a little for the purpose of the exercise.😁

see whatt you think. Not sure if i can handle talking much. Feeling very vulnerable. Luckily the moderators came to the rescue. Helping me a lot.

Revengeful Eye Is His Love,

i'm going to fight you all!

A seven headed Dragon won't hold me back!

You always rip me off!

Stealing good life behind my back,

Having me talk to my self made night!

Because i cannot forgive me,

you going through my mind.

Always burning good life in,

and around me,

into dust and ashes.

And the message from my nightmares scream

"Leave them alone!"

7X

Don't want to hear about it! 

Every single hurting one got a story to tell!

Everyone knows about it

From the Queen of England

to you Hounds of Hell!

And if I catch you fiends coming back my way

I'm gonna serve His LOVE for me to you!

i know that ain't what you want to hear

But that's what I will do!

For the feeling coming from my gut Says

"Get out of me!"

I'm going to Paradise with Jesus!

Far from your opera forever more

His Love is gonna light the straw and chaff

Make the fear drip out of your every pore!

For my heart is running thick red!

And my sight is running thick red!

while my hurt runs a river of blood!

Right before Our Lord!

i know all your evil is gonna bleed from me!

And I will hurt nevermore. 

For the stains coming from His blood Tell me,

"Please Come Back Home"

(play it LOUD AS)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0J2QdDbelmY&list=RDMMY4tHEwWLMJM&index=11

[heartathome]

That's alright. I'm glad to see you back. I couldn't listen to all the song @DownMoreThanUp It's a bit 'loud' for me and I couldn't hear the words properly. To be honest I don't usually listen to the songs unless they have lyrics. I don't remember the words as such but pick up on feelings. Your poem sounds like you're fighting and you're very determined! I'm glad you're able to write poetry to process things. The last verse concerned me a little bit, and I wondered if you have SI. I may be misunderstanding. 

My heart's running thick red,

my sight is running thick red,

my hurt runs a river of blood!

Right before Our Lord!

And so all your evil is gonna bleed from me

And I will hurt nevermore. 

For the stains coming from His blood Tell me,

"Please Come Back Home" 

[Appleblossom]

@ENKELI Praying for you and your friend and family.  

@REDLINEZ750 Thank you for your heartfelt post. I still dont remember reading anything upsetting from you. SO please dont worry.

I am beside myself a lot of the time in worry for my son. Very heightened, anxious, trying to do the right things, but life is a challenge.

Thank you all for being friends.

@heartathome @tyme 

[heartathome]

Oh.  You are a beautiful, caring and loving soul @Appleblossom and I'm very appreciative to be called your friend!  💛

Is your son okay at the moment? I can totally understand the intense feelings regarding your son. You're a wonderful mum, don't forget that!

Since my son is out of my control, all I can do is keep handing him over to God. I did put a few boundaries up with him (because of his drug and alcohol misuse) but I know you can't do that with your son! That's not his story! 

Thinking of and praying for you and your son! 🙏 💛

[heartathome]

Verse of the Day

The Lord is close to the broken-hearted. He saves those whose spirits have been crushed.

Psalms 34:18 ICB 💛