Support for Flowerlove22

[Sunnyside226]

@Paperdaisy no I haven't heard of that 

I have anxiety sick I am pasting back and forward  I am stuck in my head  my heart is going so fast  my body is shaking   I have no one right now  what if I messed up   I am going downhill I feel like I can't breath  

[Sunnyside226]

@Birdofparadise8 everything has happened I don't know what to do anymore  I feel trapped I am not thinking right  my body hurts my chest feels tight I am breaking down sorry for tagging you 

[Paperdaisy]

Hey @Sunnyside226 If you are struggling to breathe I would urge you to call 000. If you are having a panic attack I would encourage you to call the SANE support line 1800 187 263 or Lifeline 13 11 14 so someone can support you over the phone. Sitting with you

[Birdofparadise8]

It’s okay @Sunnyside226

I don’t mind. 
can you trying taking some deep breaths like @Paperdaisy suggested 

[Sunnyside226]

@Birdofparadise8 I am taking deep breaths   everything is coming down on me  I feel hopeless  everything is my fault 

I am crumbling  I was missing last night in my car because I couldn't handle anything   I can't stop thinking  I really hate myself  thankyou for being here it means a lot 

[Birdofparadise8]

Your definitely not hopeless @Sunnyside226 

You have a lot going on and have handled it the best you can. I know it was difficult for you to look after the children. 
I don’t hate you but I know how you feel about hating oneself. 

That's okay. I'm here for you anytime. 

Are you able to listen to music or try and do something that might distract you for a bit? 

[Sunnyside226]

@Birdofparadise8 I have music on  I am just in a Headspace where I don't know what to do anymore I have tried and tried  I just keep falling apart and down   ever since I had the kids I have gone downhill badly it's not there fault  it's no one's fault  I took on too much responsibility  I thought I could do it  it's taken a very bad turn  the reason I had the kids is because there's nobody else both of my parents are gone my sister lives in a mental hospital means she will never be allowed out  that's why I got the kids if I could make things easier I would  yes I have had bad days I have let my feelings out on here because it's building up inside me  I never meant to hurt anyone on here sometimes my head is all over the place where I don't think or write clear  i shouldn't have to feel bad about my feelings I understand people here have a job I have respect for all peer workers on here  I never wanted to say anything if any of my post has upset you I am sorry  I really thought coming here would be nice for me to meet others like me but instead it has taken a very bad turn 😕  😞 I hope to make friends on here and talk everyday or when people can  but I shouldn't have to say sorry for have feelings everyone is allowed to have bad days and mental days I am very sorry for being here I truly am 

[Birdofparadise8]

The tricky thing with being on here is chatting over text. So there can be a lot of misinterpretation of something that has been said and can be taken in the wrong context. 

You don't have anything to be sorry about. 

@Sunnyside226 

We all care about you and value your input.

[Paperdaisy]

Sounds like you have a lot going on @Sunnyside226 it's understandable you feel overwhelmed. You are very welcome here and you haven't done anything wrong. 

Please take care 💝

[Sunnyside226]

@Birdofparadise8   I just feel like everytime I say about me like for example if I said you I am having a meltdown or I am thinking of harming myself that doesn't mean I am harming anyone else which I haven't and I won't  

When others get up all in my face about things that makes things worse  and no I don't feel bad about yesterday  

I am sure if a peer worker or a boss on here had concerns they are welcome to email me and remove post   I will talk to @tyme tomorrow I think she is on 

@Birdofparadise8  how are you any plans for today?