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Yeah that was probably a little inconsiderate of me @CheerBear so sorry for that. 
I cannot imagine the position you are in with unwell one - I know the difficulties I have had over the years with both my parents but I could also not imagine not having them around - so whilst their lack of care and support recently was hurtful there is still that very real need for you to spend as much time as you can with them while you still have them around.In saying that you also have the right to build a life for yourself apart from them and if this new connection with He is something you feel could develop into something a lot more then follow your heart Hon. Not going to the appointment with unwell one is putting yourself first - it does not mean that you do not care but you are setting priorities for yourself.
It was wonderful to hear how well you dealt with some tricky today and even better that you can see a chance of that developing into paid work down the track. It also must allow you to feel you can return to study at some stage (that I know you really want to do) and today's handling of everything in such a positive way must give you a little more confidence that anything is possible. Super happy for you and super proud of how far you have come - the world is your oyster CB ...I truly believe that
It is tricky with He being married - and I can say I would not usually approve of someone being with someone else until that is sorted - but I also hear how happy He is making you so my heart is definitely winning over my head for you @CheerBear If this is making you so happy then I have nothing but support for you in pursuing 'whatever' it is or becomes. You deserve some happiness CB and the kind of feelings you have described are pretty special - I truly hope this is the beginning of something really great for you.
Going back to study a bit at a time is a wise move. You can do a little to tip your toes in again and I have no doubt that will give you the motivation to do more. The kids are getting older too so more able to look after themselves a little more while you study. Things are coming together for you CB
Yes had some down time this afternoon. Had a sleep and watched tennis. I was really quite exhausted helping my sister this morning so I was pleased she didn't need me for more than a couple of hours. I am heading out a bit later to do the shopping, chemist and gets some plastic boxes from Kmart. I need to wait until I get paid - which is usually around 8pm - so that still gives me time to go where I need. Bunnings and the chemist close at 9pm, Kmart is 24/7 and the supermarket is midnight ...so heaps of time. It is likely to be a longer night for me again so I can finally get the spare room done.
I hopefully will have it all done completely (including the garage finished and the garden tidied up) by the end of this weekend @CheerBear Then next week I can take my time going into work and starting the planning I can do. It will certainly help longer term having it all sorted and in an order where I can find everything easily. Of course I have labelled each box and they are stacked according to what I am likely to need the most being at the front. I'll do the games tonight and then I can sort the rest of my books.
You have certainly been presented with 2 very tricky situations over the last couple of years - both of which have tested your own beliefs - but you are right ...we honestly do not know how we will deal with such situations until we are in them. Sometimes decisions need to be made with our head AND our heart - and if the outcome is opposed to what we had always thought we would do (or not do) then it is a judgement made with all the facts we have in front of us. As I said - your happiness (and excitement) at the moment is all the evidence I need that this is a good thing for you ...and so happy to see it 
Life is not always black and while (unfortunately) so a little grey in a good way is okay ...maybe we can call him Mr Grey 
Mr Grey he shall forever be now @CheerBear
Yes two life changing tricky situations for you in relatively close time - very different but still need to be navigated in their own way. It seems Mr Grey treats you as an equal, cares very much for you and above all makes you happy so I really do hope this is just the beginning of something really special for you. You deserve nothing less
Great to catch you this afternoon/evening too - always love me some CB time
You are very right @Maggie I am tired. It is all starting to catch up with me a bit but I am determined to get it all finished this week so I can relax next week. Unfortunately Kmart did not have the boxes I was after so I will have to go to Big W tomorrow (today now) to get the ones they have there.There is only a dollar difference in price but they are the correct size and strength. Once I have them I will be able to finish off the room. I also need to move some timber tomorrow before it rains and then some roof sheeting to clear out my driveway. Then I can move the trailer in off the street.
Still a lot to do but it will be so good to have it all sorted. A week and a half to go until I go back to work but I am feeling good that things will be sorted and easily accessible when I need them. Eventually (when I save a little money) I am going to put a set of stairs in above the ceiling and store things in that space.There is enough space for a whole room up there so perfect for storage.
Going to try to get to sleep again - and hope for no more nightmares ...one woke me tonight and it has taken some time to settle enough to feel okay again. Hope you are okay and sleeping soundly right now yourself. Catch you in the morning if I am uo in time
