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[Former-Member]

@MDT 

Hes 16 a good kid.

He has no relatives or anyone in the country.

Almost every bday ive spent on my own & so has he now

[MDT]

You have each other I guess @Former-Member
You are his mum 🙂
He is your son 🙂

[Former-Member]

@MDT 

Yeah hes not in a hurry to move out cause we get on

& im not in a hurry for him to move out

Its just us thats all i guess

We r best friends at least. We will sort out the bills together

I keep healthy & fit as i dont expect him to look after me when im old

I want him to b free

[Former-Member]

@MDT 

Writing to someone anyone keeps me alive

[MDT]

Yeah @Former-Member
Well that counts hey

[MDT]

Also @Former-Member
I think people are under the spell of modernism. They are so stuck in their own world at times.
Do what you can to gradually improve the situation.
I've had birthdays on my own before. In the end it's just a day.
It may sound cheesy or lame but sometimes it pays to be our own friend when things are tough. If we avoid becoming our own worst enemy then this means we can be a bit nicer to ourselves

[Appleblossom]

@Former-Member A lot of people do not realise it takes a lot EXTRA to study and run groups and when confidence and self esteem are 

Finding a social situation to belong has been very difficult for me so I can really relate.  I often dont know whether to stay or leave different groups. DO what you have to do to keep your little family unit rolling along.  You dont owe peple an explanation ...

[Former-Member]

@Appleblossom 

Yeah woke up feeling sad again

The effort im putting into trying to rent a hall to teach from is really upsetting me. 

Its very hard for me to be around people when i have so little.

Its like asking the average person to be in a room full of philanthropists.

Thats what it feels like

& listening to their conversations is very hard too. They talk about things i cant relate to & i know then that theyd never relate to my life so i keep quiet. 

[outlander]

hi @Former-Member
im sorry to hear of your past and the struggles you faced with your studies. I do know the impact that trauma can have in all aspect of life including studies. You should be proud though that you have completed your studies now.
I hope the approval for the hall will come around quickly so you can start doing your exercise classes.
Would it be possible to hold your exercise classes in a more open area such as an open grass space near a park? I know theres quite a few fitness instructors who do that where I am rather then having in a gym or centre sort of setting.

[Former-Member]

@outlander 

I looked into outside & council expected me to pay 100's

Anyway i teach using resistance bands & theyd break. 

Govt/council halls r all full with other classes.

Itll surely come thru this hall. I only need 2 to cover cost of hiring hall.

Ive got that.

Im looking into studying aqua as its huge in this town + suited to older adults & those with injuries same as my resistance band class.

I just get so stressed with studying. Its overwelming me just thinking about it

However whilst i have little work & my son still at sch i should do it. 

Finances will drop drastically once he finishes sch & i need to b able to provide for myself