Lived Experience Forum

[The-red-centaur]

I've always hated dancing @eth @greenpea
I would walk and walk for like 6-8 hours then usually end up at the 24hr Kmart on the way home.

[greenpea]

@Zoe7 Yes when you are manic you can dance to anything! and the only thing that keeps me from being manic is medication. 

[Zoe7]

I've been know to end up at that 24hour Kmart in the middle of the night when I can't sleep @The-red-centaur - we were probably there at the same time lol

[Mazarita]

I have always loved dancing, @Zoe7, @eth, @greenpea, @The-red-centaur. Did ballet as a child. Danced so much at night clubs, mainly gay clubs, and bush raves. Disco in clubs earlier than that even (from when I was about 16). Sadly my legs won't carry me for dancing these days. C'est la vie. At least I had some good times back then. 

[The-red-centaur]

Since being diagnosed with schizoaffective a few days ago I'm still trying to learn what that means. It makes way more sense to me than the bpd did. Also I have no idea how to deal with mania. Like I was suicidal last week and now I'm so high I feel like I could literally fly into outer space and join the aliens in my head....

[Zoe7]

I would dance all night when I was out on the town @Mazarita @greenpea @The-red-centaur @eth - sometimes I would be the only one on the dance floor lol - but that didn't bother me - I seemed to be able to drag others along with me - how things change hey!

[greenpea]

@The-red-centaur@Mazarita@Zoe7@eth yes I know all about walking .... it was walking and running I couldnt stop. I was out of control.

[Mazarita]

@The-red-centaur, was your previous diagnosis bipolar or bpd? Are the aliens hostile or friendly, just curious? I just had that big delusion I was a love goddess, really felt all my hypersexuality was a spiritual thing. But then it went bad. Mostly I've experienced the depressive end of the spectrum since I was a child.

@Zoe7, yeah me too with the dancing all night. Also wasn't too shy to get up first and often other people would follow. Didn't care whether they did or not really.

@greenpea, my dad was a huge walker in his older years. He'd walk all across Melbourne on all day expeditions, and find things on the streets, like pens, watches (gave me a great one once), occasional money, lighters etc. 

@eth, by the way, I totally agree we need to be able to talk about hypersexuality. It is a really common part of bipolar after all.

[greenpea]

@The-red-centaur bp1 and schizoaffective here. The only thing me me are the meds .... if they are not right I am off with the fairies literally. I once had this hallucination (we are all adults here I hope ) where well let us say my voice gave me the best present I have ever had in my life. It was like sparkes and glitter taking over my body.

When I told my pdoc he looked at me sternly and upped the medication and therefore no more presents from voice 😞

[eth]

@greenpea to answer your question about trouble - I've been taken to hospital by the police at least 5 times over the years.  And kept there involuntarily.  And had delusions about why and who was involved in calling them that meant I blamed people I was close to and lost years of having them in my life.  So hard to make amends for that.