Trying makes it worse

[maddison]

Hi @EternalFlower 

Very good news you were able to get your wallet back. Yay! Im glad you are happy to also be working with a peer worker. This sounds like great solution. 💗 Well done 👍

Today was a big day here & little tiring. I can hardly believe, although not surprised that friends case worker was absent again today. No update yet either, as to if he can change cw. 

I feel better now knowing, his psychiatrist was able to meet with him & is updated on situation. It had been stressful on my own. 

It feels like delicate situation. I do think (hope) he is becoming more stable now. I'm wondering if he was perhaps able to get some of the built up distress out of his system in the last week & now can look forward more clearly? I am here for him either way. I don't how!?♥️Taking it slow.

💗👍💗👍👛

[EternalFlower]

That sounds so distressing @maddison that cm didn't show up today, they are so flighty and Ur poor friend....how consistently inconsistent.

I understand u didn't go into the meeting, but I imagine u waiting outside really helped. It's those efforts that are so valuable.

I'm sorry it's been so tiring. Are you OK?

[Former-Member]

This is wonderful news @EternalFlower 😊 

I hope your new peer worker brings all the values of peer work to your life: hope, mutuality, empathy, respect, integrity. You deserve all that and more 💜

[maddison]

Hi @EternalFlower 

Your message is like music🎼 to my ears.... Or I guess, like colours to my eyes!!☺️

It is kind & amazing of you to reply & relate to what I'm (we) are going through. I know it means a lot to him to have my support, although he is not always the best at expressing to me. It means something to have your support.. On his behalf! 💗

I am ok, thankyou for asking. I didn't realise the toll this last week had, had on me. I must have been running on adrenaline. Having relaxing day today, laying on bed, crochet, tv! I had intense anxiety attack last night. I was ok, mentally I understood what was happening, it was uncomfortable, I hid in bed & feel asleep. The thought of your anxiety, crossed my mind.

Are you ok?

Thank you💛💚🧡

I feel better today. 🙂

[EternalFlower]

Hi @maddison how did it go with Ur houdemate? 

I relate to the packed bags...although I put it off it is a big step for me

Well done on getting through such a hard week, I hope u are OK and feeling like progress was made

It's not been easy I'm sure at times xx

[EternalFlower]

Thank you @Former-Member 

Permission to whine? It took so long to get access to a peer worker.

That out , I'm so happy with her and we have a good connection!!

Thank u for the support and I am grateful for Ur presence and help, and for listening x

[EternalFlower]

Hi everyone @maddison @Appleblossom @Clawde @Former-Member @hanami 

I had another run in with cm on fri that was upsetting but I'm OK

Watching TV and eating late dinner

[Appleblossom]

@EternalFlower

So good you have a connection with peer wkr. No good about that cm.  Her job is not just management she is supposed to help you.

Experimented with a creamy chicken tomato soup tonight. Yum. 

Emotionally delicate but hanging in there. It is what it is.

@Former-Member @tyme @maddison  

[tyme]

Hugs @Appleblossom ,

We're here for you.

tyme

[Appleblossom]

I have really appreciated the changes in the forums.  First when Community Guides came in, and then later the Peer workers. It really makes a difference. @tyme I know I am often trying to give support, but the forum has become part of life and I feel the support too which is HUGE for me. Thank you.