Running

[Jynx]

@avant-garde weaponised politeness is my immediate thought. He was there I'm guessing? 

No need to share details unless you think it would be helpful to do so, get it off chest and all that. 

Crawling into the plushie village, wanna come sit? 

[avant-garde]

@Jynx

Yeah and I had to pretend that I wasn't terrified of him and terrified of that stupid word! 

*clings to Jynx in the plushie village*

[Jynx]

@avant-garde NOT the kind of pretend that we like!! And yeah, it is a stupid word 😤

*piles plushies around like a wall to protect us from the world, they all stand guard* 

[avant-garde]

Oh @Jynx it just brought those horrible 6 weeks back

TW: Abuse

Content/trigger warning

...where he consistently gaslit me and told me to be happy and they don't deal with sadness, to be thankful and grateful and to have beeping poise!

Telling me "this is your place too" while telling me what to do and how to act. 

There was no lock on my door and I became a risk to myself as a result of being coercively controlled on one end and abused on the other...

And to just act like everything is ok? That they didn't abuse me? That he didn't abuse me?

[Jynx]

@avant-garde added a TW just so you know. 

Sending a billion hugs too, just so you know. 

That's so awful hun, and like having to just pretend like this person didn't put you through so much terror and misery. Making nice with ones tormenter is a special level of masking, I can only imagine the anguish caused by having to keep all your pain and rage inside. 

[avant-garde]

@Jynx I hadn't really talked about my time there...

[Jynx]

With anyone @avant-garde ? What's it like talking about it now? 

[avant-garde]

@Jynx 

He's a sister church member... He was doing me a favour... They took me in when I had no one... Don't want to be ungrateful...

[Jynx]

Not how it works @avant-garde you do NOT have to be grateful. 

The frog manages to get out of the fire and back into the hot pan, do you say he should be grateful for just sizzling instead of burning? 

You were vulnerable, you were in crisis, you needed safety and solace and you copped... that? 

Yeah nah maybe he did do you a favour, but then he stomped on you. You owe him nothing. 

[avant-garde]

@Jynx I need help grounding