@avant-garde something I try to do is to make small tweaks in my language, to alter my psyche... I'm just honing in on the fact that it sounds like it feels inevitable for the darkness to return. But... maybe it won't? Like I find it immensely helpful to try interrupting my usual spiral thoughts about 'oh what if it all goes wrong' with thoughts like 'But what if it all goes right?'
So like, if you somehow knew the darkness definitely wasn't gonna hit (just hypothetically, because it still might - and we'll be right there with ya, holding some candles!), what would you be doing? What if you end up having an ok night, what would it look like?
(PS Feel free to tell me that this is unhelpful currently, especially if your brain isn't in a spot to go delving into cognitive stuff like that 💜)
