Running

[avant-garde]

*kicks tumbleweed ash heap*

*jumps in ash heap pile angrily*

*jumps repeatedly creating a cloud of ash*

*sits in remaining ash*

*watches ash fall on her*

ok this seems fitting now

@tyme 

[avant-garde]

Oh yay! Let's just take another "choice" away from her! Let's just make it a whole church outreach activity and not give them the choice! 

I've done so many different outreach courses and I won't even be able to eat the food anyway! They made that blatantly obvious last time by giving me a plate of lettuce! I'm not a rabbit!

I'm taking KFC and they can shove it. 

If I have to sit there and watch a stupid video, be assigned a stupid group with again no choice with who I get flipping stuck with then I'm going to take advantage of the one choice I do have, what I eat for lunch and rub it in their faces.

@tyme 

[avant-garde]

(read this post first)

It just hit me... the pj's I got today... how redeeming it was for me...

TW: abuse & control

Content/trigger warning

I was always just given what to wear, this colour, that outfit, that dress, everything they picked meant something to my colourful variety of abusers...
but I got nice pajamas today that no one else picked for me, that didn't please anyone but me, because I liked them, and they're mine...

 @Jynx @rav3n 

@tyme 

[avant-garde]

Will anyone see this wounded Phoenix....

...apparently not

[tyme]

Are you okay hun @avant-garde ?

[avant-garde]

No! I'm not ok!

I've felt unseen, unheard and alone for days! Even on here!

[ArraDreaming]

Hey @avant-garde I can’t stay for long but I am here with you

[tyme]

Hey @avant-garde , sorry to hear you feel unseen and unheard. 

Have you been able to connect with any other members or people in real life?

Do you still have art groups? I remember you saying that they were going to stop the groups or something?

[avant-garde]

@tyme 

No because real life is worse right now

[avant-garde]

I hate how people seem to think I'm ok, I'm fine, I don't need to cater for her, I don't need to care about her, she's too high maintenance, she's too much trouble, she doesn't care, she's too different, she'll be fine with that, we don't need to tell her, we don't need to warn her, her allergies aren't that bad, she can eat that, we don't need to check for her, she's fine

Too many excuses when they cause me pain and no apologies

Won't anyone hear this flightless phoenix...