Running

[avant-garde]

@Jynx 

Yep and given the amount of emotional pain I was in (hence the wanting kitty cuddles) it gave me the opportunity for multiple full bodied screams

[Jynx]

@avant-garde I ask for the universe to give you a break to catch hun, my word. I'm sorry that things have been hard, and now you're also wounded... 

I can only really give virtual hugs and a prayer, but I give them with great care. May your load lighten, your cup refill, and your healing be swift. 

(づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡

[avant-garde]

TW: SA

Content/trigger warning

I've been struggling a lot with the concept of virginity, that I lost my virginity to rape when I was just a child and that my worth was tied to it. 

It's hard to tackle this, especially as a Christian

[AuntGlow]

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@avant-garde wrote:

@AuntGlow 

I won't be able to until our next session Thursday week 

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Okay, well please do let me know how you go when you get to talk with them. @avant-garde 

How are things in your world tonight? 🫶

[avant-garde]

@AuntGlow 

https://saneforums.org/t5/Talking-through-trauma-and-PTSD/Running/m-p/1769130/highlight/true#M8411

[AuntGlow]

Thank you for linking this for me @avant-garde. 

I can't even begin to imagine how painful this would have been for you to experience... and the inordinate weight that must come with holding this experience for so long.

You didn't deserve the way you were treated; you deserved love and protection. 

This really would be hard to tackle as a Christian... 

How can we support you this week? 💛 

[avant-garde]

@AuntGlow 

I need some help in starting to challenge this belief, because I have no capacity to challenge it myself

[AuntGlow]

Of course, we can absolutely work on this together. If you could label this belief specifically, what would it be? @avant-garde 💛

[avant-garde]

@AuntGlow 

The word "label" is a bit ambiguous, as it makes me think of spice jars and diagnoses

But if I were to give it a topical heading I would say "my past experiences determine my worth"

I have a number of trauma influenced core beliefs, my most difficult would be that "I'm unworthy to be loved" in which virginity would be a part of that

[AuntGlow]

I understand that perspective @avant-garde ☺️.

Firstly, thank you for sharing this with me, I always appreciate your vulnerability.

Secondly, I want to make sure challenging these beliefs is explored safely in this space, so I invite you to tell me when you don't want to talk about something, okay?

Thirdly, I am curious to know if there's a part of you (even if it's very small) that believes these thoughts might not be true? 💛