The darkness is overwhelming

[tyme]

Hey @avant-garde ,

I've been thinking a lot about what you said the other night about Esther. It's a very interesting point that I never considered. I really don't have answer though.

Happy to talk about what is going on for you if you want. No pressure of course. I just want to make space if you wanted to talk about it. 

Also, while in church today, I was thinking of you and wanted to leave Psalm 56 with you.

[avant-garde]

@tyme 

I had a church event last night to get to know the potential new pastor... he has a month to decide whether he wants to leave his current congregation and join us...

I was carrying a lot and I started panicking really early... everything from last week made it impossible to function...

[tyme]

Hugs @avant-garde .

I'm sorry to hear that you felt so panicky early on. It must've been so hard today.

I'm here if you want to talk about it. Or let me know what I can do to make it more bearable for you at this time?

[avant-garde]

@tyme 

Delilah was the only thing bad about today, not even the sermons were triggering for a change

[tyme]

Argh.. that good ol Delilah always gets in the way of good things, right @avant-garde ?

Oh, I haven't even said thank you to you for sharing your Kinder eater egg. That's so awesome. I was so excited to see your photos.

I've been staying up until 2-3am the last few nights making Bible texts. Here are two I have photos of. They aren't the best photos.

Tagging @Bow too. I said I'd show you these which I made using my Cricut.

[avant-garde]

@tyme 

They're beautiful

I really hope my elder and deacon kept a VERY close eye on her and warned the pastor of her pathological lying.

I still get really anxious seeing her. 

So you're gone for 2 weeks? This your last shift before you leave?

[tyme]

Hey @avant-garde , I'm not going until Monday week. So I've got a whole week around... well a few days anyway. My next shift is Wed. I'll see you then?

Anyway, I'm hopping off. Goodnight.

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy 

why do I bother? why do I flipping bother!!!

the beeping idiot sent out an email saying that "for the meeting on Sunday, we will be serving the same meat as from the dinner on Saturday, but bring your own salad for the sake of dietary requirements"

what the beeping heck!! 

first 'I make a scene' and she grumbles 'but she can eat the meat'

i mean does she want me in hospital! 

the stupid, selfish, nosy know it all who thinks she knows MY ALLERGIES better than I do! 

I KNOW THE CONSEQUENCES

and those consequences aren't small...

@Jynx - I think that kind of gives you a picture of how I am...

[Dreamy]

@avant-garde oh that's just frustrating and really isn't fair. Is there anyone else you can speak to about something else being provided for you? 

Deep breath sweet, sitting with you ❤️.

[avant-garde]

@Dreamy 

i'm sure there is but i'm not sure they'd care. they would just say "bring your own lunch"

At least I won't be hungry.

Oh I could order delivery... because they don't agree with "encouraging people to work on a sunday"

nah I'm not that vindictive