Self Tricking

[Trickster]

I forgot the word but it time for my monthly meltdown on whether I'm a good person or I'm unconsciously tricking myself.

I can't concentrate on my study because my brain is distracted by this.

I want to skip this but I know I come over the other side but I need that bit now I wish the brain was more like Uno where you could place down a skip card instead it's more like terraforming mars and all the conditions must be met to fix the silly thing.

[AuntGlow]

Hello @Trickster , 

Thank you so much for this open and honest post - it sounds like your mind isn't being very kind to you today. 😔It's truly so overwhelming when our brain looks for evidence to support the belief that we are somehow bad or inherently flawed. I am here to tell you that you are not. And your concern around being a good person shows me how much you value doing good in the world - which proves that you are a good person.

(Yes, even if you get things wrong sometimes!)

When our mind fixates on needing to know and the inner distrust alarm bells start ringing, it can certainly be hard to focus. This process must be so exhausting... it seems like anxiety-brain can be quite loud for you at times. I want you to know that you are not alone (mine is too!).

I am curious, when do you notice it's more quiet? For example, when you feel a stronger sense of trust and grounding within yourself - what are you doing, who are you with, and where are you? 

If you are able to notice these things, is there a way you can connect to one of these elements tonight? I get the sense this will help to slow things down a bit so that you have more room to focus on your study.

I would love to hear how you go and would encourage you to explore some other self-compassion strategies. Here are a few to get your started: Self-Compassion Practices: Cultivate Inner Peace and Joy - Self-Compassion

Talk soon, 

Aunt Glow. ✨

[Trickster]

@AuntGlowI had a good nap that helped but it gets loud when I guess I'm thinking of too many components too many moving parts I've got some extra stressors at the moment that used to hit on those in my past and so I try to shift away normally but it's hard to avoid so resting when need and lots of it even if it frustrates me not being able to skip.

[Till23]

Oh @AuntGlow I could talk about this all day. I have a thread over on Not Good Enough. I will look at the resources you posted. (I think I’ve already read them, but will check).

[AuntGlow]

I hear you @Trickster. I am really glad you have been able to get some rest though. It really does help us to regulate when there is a lot going on. Do you ever find that movement helps you to release some of the extra stress you are holding? 

Hoping you are feeling a little better today. Looking forward to hearing your updates. 😊

[AuntGlow]

Thank you for sharing, I will go and have a look at your thread now. And always here to talk about this topic and share any other resources that could be helpful, although it sounds like you have quite a few under your belt. 💛😊