30-11-2019 08:34 PM
@Dec I wish they could just leave it as different beliefs but they never do. I just don’t know what to do and. I am supposed to be seeing my psychiatrist soon but then what am I supposed to say because now I am scared that they are part of it too. I just feel so scared that they will figure it out that I know and cause I worry that they can read my mind and are listening to my thoughts so they may already know and are testing me. I already know they are putting things in my food and I know they are watching cause I heard them but maybe they are waiting so they can trick me I don’t know. I just want to have to deal with this right now.
01-12-2019 08:33 AM
hi @Eden1919 you're suffering from delusions.
No one is controlling you, no one can read your mind. There are no fake, husk people being controlled by anyone or anything. You are experiencing delusions.
I have schizophrenia. I am on another forum for just schizophrenics, you may find it helpful. A lot of people there suffer from delusions and they are very similar to what you are now describing. Your fears & delusions are common symptoms.
01-12-2019 12:11 PM
@BryanaCamp But if what I think is true then you would say that.... but also if that is what it is then how come things have really happened because of this? I am not just making it up I keep trying to find reasons it isn’t like this but then everything keeps bringing me back to here. Obviously you can think what you want/do and I know I am not explaining things well at all but if I could just ignore it I would and it would be much easier for me to think it was all fake but everything keeps taking me back to this and how much am I supposed to ignore there is only so much I can do.
01-12-2019 02:08 PM
I can assure you that no one can read our mind or listen to our thoughts - we do have that much privacy
And we are entitled to our beliefs and some people will try and change our thinking and it's hard - who can you trust? I can't answer that but I do understand your need for privacy
That's a tough one
People can and will tell us what they think is going to help us and I have just been told that antidepressants might ease my physical pain but I am sceptical and won't take them - we have the right to refuse - you have had bad experiences in the past as I have
But who do you trust? Who can you trust?
I can't tell you that but I do understand your need to protect yourself
02-12-2019 11:42 PM
@Dec I just feel like I need to be able to talk to someone about it but I know that isn’t possible and I know there is nothing I can do about it but that doesn’t make it easy. I know no one believes me and that is ok I just hate hiding. It makes me tired.
03-12-2019 02:20 PM
04-12-2019 09:24 AM
It would make you tired - keeping it all to yourself the way you are
It would be great to be able to talk about it with someone who understood
What you are talking about does sound a bit like things that are paranormal - perhaps you could look it up on the internet and see if there are chat rooms where you could discuss it and you would be safe
All the best
04-12-2019 11:14 AM
I feel very weird today I can’t even explain it I feel like everyone is just bored with me and annoyed because I don’t just agree with them without good reason too. I just feel so stuck and trapped with no real way to go anywhere no matter what I do someone is not happy I just don’t want to always be feeling scared. I feel like I am falling again.
05-12-2019 01:03 PM
I guess I was right everyone is sick of me. Oh well I can’t blame them I am too.
05-12-2019 01:24 PM
I don't think anyone here is sick of you @Eden1919 .
I'm around for a couple of hours if you want to talk. Is uni finishing up soon or has already?
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