I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Just read that you were studying ‘parts’ @Jynx. I really like the hr I had on it. It was really beneficial finding what ‘parts’ are your authentic self! 

[Snowie]

Will look into those books @Jynx thanks for that

@Captain24 I'm glad it went well today. Your psych seems very knowledgeable and caring.

Say as much as you need/want to hon. Sometimes just getting it all out helps.

So proud of you for getting through today 💗

[Jynx]

@Captain24 oh my stars, please do not apologise for the ramble!! That sounds like a huge appt full of epiphanies and insights, you absolutely gotta write that down to help take it all in and start processing!! Thank you for sharing hun! Also.... you know how much Jynx likes to ramble haha you're so fine. It also helps all of us understand a bit more about what you're currently working on and how we might best be able to support you!! How are you feeling about it all now? 

Oh cool you've encountered parts work too!! I think it's been super helpful in being more able to manage my inner critic, as well as helped me to reduce/eliminate those self-shaming kinda thoughts that can emerge when our parts are in conflict. It's good stuff!! 

@Snowie no worries darlin, hope you find em insightful!! 

Either of you cool cats got anything on tomorrow?

[Captain24]

It was a @Jynx @word vomit!

It hasn’t lifted my mood at all but it has me understanding it a lot more and why things haven’t been working. I’m glad it helps you help me. That gives me some hope. 

Im so glad I found her!! I can’t sing her praises high enough. 

It hasn’t given me anymore confidence for work but I kinda know what happened. 

I only had a quick session on parts one on one with one of the facilitators. So I really need to look into it more. I forgot all about it until you wrote that. Feel free to share as you go!! Please.. 

As for tomorrow I don’t have much on just mow the front lawn. I had a big day today so a rest sounds good. 

What about you? Did you get to visit your partner last night. 

I read about the jealousy. I see you as being open and honest with all. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 even if there's no discernable lift in your mood, this is still growth!! I'm so happy you have found someone who is a good match, so that you can actually start truly understanding yourself and your needs. Exciting stuff. 

Hmm maybe I could do a write up of some IFS stuff? Oh dear I've promised so many write ups haha... I know I also said I'd do one about how I conceptualise love, and I wanted to do one on the book I recommended above, The Four Agreements, and how it has shaped my inner world. Hmmm maybe I ought to just start a thread called 'Jynx's Rambles' 😂

I did see them! It made me giddy teehee 😍 Yay for a rest day! We need those just as much as we need food and water 😊 I think other than lurking around here in the arvo as usual, I should have a lil rest day too, get stuck into some reading, maybe tidy up a little. 

[Captain24]

It is exciting @Jynx. I can’t wait for the next appointment. I actually look forward to it not dread it like I use to. I am going to grow and find strength with her. I am confident that I will have a better understanding of my life.

I really want a parts one. I might look it up tomorrow. I need to look further into myself and I think it will help. My psych was going to do a course on it but went to the schema course instead. 

Im glad you got to see them. Do you gravitate to a particular gender or just who you develop a relationship with. I believe you fall in love with the person not the gender. My best friend gravitates to females. 

I had a dream last night that we were chatting in here about me straightening my hair. (By the way, it was really humid and my hair went frizzy!) and it turned out that we were going to the same event. You were dressed in women’s clothes with a hideous auburn curly wig so I wouldn’t know it was you! But you recognised me and I recognised you. You took the wig off and your mullet was bright green. We were going to lunch. Then my alarm went off and I woke up so I don’t know what happened after that! 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 oh for sure!! Hmm I mean you could take a look at the IFS website to see if there's any useful info there? I just had a looksie and there's an outline here you could start with!

Hmmm... yeah look, without me even meaning to, every person I've dated has been trans or nonbinary!! I have found the term 'demisexual' to describe me pretty well - it's less about the gender and more about the emotional connection we have! 

BAHAHA omg that is hilarious!! I love that a) I felt the need to wear a disguise even though I'm pretty certain you've never seen my face and b) that you were able to recognise me anyway!! Aww it's cute that there's a lil Jynx inhabiting your dreamscape, I hope they are just as friendly and full of hugs as I am!! 

Hmm maybe I should dye my hair green.... As it was fated in your dream!! 😝

[Captain24]

I will look at those links tomorrow. @Jynx. Thank you!! 

Yep.. I understand demisexual. It’s something that I looked at when trying to find myself. It resonated quite a lot. But more the demiromantic or homoromantic. 

I know.. neither of us has any idea what the other looks like! It was a dress with large floral print! Just so you know. I don’t actually dream very often. Like maybe every couple of months. You must have left an impression! 

Dying it green would be priceless! It’s a sign. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 you're welcome!! 

Oh yay! It is nice to find those labels that feel like they fit our experiences hey! I hope we can get a proper LGBTQ+ space kicked off here soon too! 

Oh wow, bless your heart that has made me blush! Maybe we will meet in the dream realm one day 😉😂

I'll let you know if I do, teehee!! I shall have to bid you goodnight though hun!! And you as well lovely @Snowie if you're still hanging about!! It's been a sublime pleasure chatting, catch you soon!! 💜

[Captain24]

Thanks for tonight @Jynx. You’ve been insightful as always.

Have a good night. 

Talk soon