Contemplating leaving the forums

[Dreamy]

@creative_writer I'm sorry you have had such  a sh!t day. Completely understand that feeling. We are here for you ❤️ 

[creative_writer]

@Dreamy I wish I could talk but I can’t anymore. I feel the only way I’ll be accepted is if I talk about butterflies and rainbows, and talk about how my meds and therapy have cured my bipolar and cptsd even though they haven’t. I have to lie about what’s going through my mind. Otherwise my post may be deemed inappropriate and not recovery orientated. I’m not allowed to talk about pain, I’m not even allowed to talk about how I cope with the pain. I can only talk about how great my life is

[creative_writer]

It’s probably more fault anyways @Dreamy. I’m not good enough for the forums. I don’t belong here

[Dreamy]

@creative_writer i understand this all to well. It's very hard to talk about things when you are going through hard times while trying to maintain being recovery focused. But you are allowed to share how you are feeling, it's ok to express things when you are struggling. It's just a matter of knowing that you won't feel that way forever and that things can get better. Have you got other people outside of the forums that you can talk to? 

[Dreamy]

@creative_writer I'm sending you hugs. I really do understand how you are feeling. But you really do belong, the forums are here for exactly this reason. 

Please try to be gentle and kind towards yourself ❤️.  We are always here for you through the good times and the bad. 

[creative_writer]

@Dreamy I can try to share what I do to lessen the pain, but it’s never recovery-orientated enough. Nothing is ever recovery-orientated enough because I’m too stupid.

I have professional supports-my psych and pdoc. I know there are helplines, but I find it a bit of a hit and miss. I don’t have many people in my personal life.

[Till23]

Some of the things you have stated here @creative_writer are not actually the case.

Yes everyone is trying for recovery, but not everyone feels that everyday.

There are lots of posts of people just sharing their story and sometimes it's not a "happy" story that day or that post.

There are guidelines but they don't preclude talikng about pain or how you cope (there are some exclusions to that).

Most people on here are not "cured", if any. Many people have chronic mental health conditions.

There are social threads and places where people post memes and uplifting things they've found, but other threads are people's real lived experience. 

@tyme @Ru-bee 

[Dreamy]

@creative_writer I'm always happy to listen. You're not stupid, you are going through a hard time and that's ok. It's never easy to find the right words when we are struggling to stay recovery focused.

I'm glad you do have supports in place. I hear you when it comes to the helplines being hit and miss. I'm completely alone other than having the forums so I'm really glad they exist. 

[tyme]

Hey @creative_writer , as mentioned above, it is not about not being allowed to post about the pain, but to ensure all posts are recovery focused. 

If you feel you need to step away and have a break from the forums you are encouraged to do so. It may give you some clarity as to what you want to do.

You can also revisit our guidelines at https://saneforums.org/t5/help/faqpage/title/community-guidelines

[creative_writer]

@Till23 yes there are guidelines, but I don’t feel like I able to talk about how I feel today. I used to be able to talk about how I felt and I used to get support, but I feel like things have shifted. It’s no longer that safe space