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Re: Life and trauma

@Former-Member 

Doing my best to take care of me... working on an 80×80 nonogram of a zombie cat...

Not one I would've picked but I don't know what they are beforehand so just going to finish it. 

 

You doing ok?

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@avant-garde Oh that should keep you busy for a while. It's hard not being able to see what it is beforehand hand but I find that once I've started i have to finish it 😂.

 

It's sort of hit that point where things have taken a turn. Today's been tough and something happened that really triggered me so much that I had to make a phone call before it was too late. I'm trying to wind down for sleep but my mind is just a complete mess and the thoughts are overwhelming. 

Re: Life and trauma

@Former-Member @avant-garde 

 

Well the presentation seemed to go very well.  They were all very interested and impressed with some of the AI stuff I demonstrated.

 

The chocolates though... no.  I didn't get anything.  Even me partner got some when they asked her to give a talk last year!  I think she felt a bit bad for me so she came home today from work with a box of Ferrero Rochers.

 

There were tech questions at the end.  One guy even brought in photos of his monitor on his laptop with a windows error showing.  So there was some free tech support.

 

Oh and to run salt into the wound.  When it was my turn to give a personal update and i said my last test result wasn't great, they moved straight on without saying a word.  It's such a great support group!  I shouldn't complain though, they're one of the main reasons I started my own for younger men last year and it's been very successful and has gotten quite a bit of attention.  They're aren't really any groups like it with it being aimed at under 60's.  All the other groups are full of older men and it's just such a different challenge for younger guys.  They have to deal with the disease while still working and raising young families so they are all very appreciative to finally have found a group like this one.

Re: Life and trauma

@Former-Member 

I'm glad you reached out to someone and that it actually helped for a change

 

@MJG017 

They sounds like arrogant privileged old men who don't know how lucky they are to have you

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@MJG017 I'm glad the presentation went well but disappointed that you didn't get your chocolates from them, I'm glad your partner came to the rescue with some for you. 

 

Really wish they had shown more appreciation to you though, you didn't have to do what you did for them but you chose to be helpful. At least that's over and done with now though. 

 

That's so disappointing how they treated you when you shared your update and that would have hurt. I'm glad you have started your own group and it sounds like you are very much appreciated there. 

 

 

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@avant-garde yeah it was lucky cos in that moment it was just what I needed. 

 

My night is really taking a turn for the worst. I didn't need this now 😞. I just want to be able to rest. 

Re: Life and trauma

@Former-Member 

 

Rest... I don't even know what that looks like... I just long for a day without a trigger or a memory or another person telling me how to live my life or how to recover better or ignoring me because they can't handle my issues and won't share theirs because they don't want to burden me or allow for me to share mine...

Gah... don't you love people *rolls eyes*

 

I don't hate you guys though...

@MJG017 

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@avant-garde people are frustrating. There's always an ear here to listen and I'll never ignore you nor would you ever be burdening me with your problems ❤️

I hate the constant memories and the triggers, I wish we could switch our brains off. You found that magic off switch yet @MJG017 ? 

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Well let's just throw that in my churches face. 

 

There was a women's event last year that because I was homeless at the time, it dropped off my radar. 

Just got a survey invitation about it and I literally threw them in it and said "I was homeless and my church didn't think to include me, I would've loved to attend but I didn't know about it"

 

Maybe now they'll get some flipping accountability and actually grow a heart

 

Yes I'm in a negative mood

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@avant-garde oh gees, would have been nice to have still been included in that. 

 

Deep breath my friend ❤️