Life and trauma

[MJG017]

@avant-garde  I googled Pintoo and found a really nice Solar System one!  They even had Pluto correctly listed as only a dwarf planet.  I may have to give them a look.  The plastic parts sound interesting, especially for being able to display them after it's finished.

[avant-garde]

@MJG017 I've done that one, 1200 pieces in 4 bags of 300.

I did this one while on holiday

[MJG017]

@Former-Member  I'm sorry you had such an incredibly tough time at the shops.  When is your appointment?  I seem to have the 13th in my head.  I don't need to tell you these panic attacks are just way out of hand!  No one can be expected to just deal with this by themselves.  I really hope this appointment can lead to you getting the support you need to get on top of this.  It's crazy for anyone to have you try to resolve this on your own, you need some help with these attacks.  I really hope you can find that on Monday.

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 it's been a very full on day. Yes the 13th is my appointment. I really hope I can get some help before it's too late cos this is too much for me. 

How are you going? 

[MJG017]

@Former-Member  I think it would be safe to say that a lot of your days are full on!  My memory does still work on occassion, so it is Monday for your appointment.  I hope its productive, and dont forget to tell them everything.  I know I tend to play things down, but ive learnt that with the health system, unfortunately, its lwft to ourselves a lot of the time to really advocate for ourselves and push for support and information.  Even to get told about services that are avaliable to us.

Im doing okay.  I think over my lifetime my mind had developed an abilty to ignore things until theyre close.  So now that I have to wait 3 months for my next test, my brain sort if files it away as a problem for another day.  The downside is those few days leading up to it, ny brain goes "right!  Its almost here.... its time to turn on the anxiety machine!"  So it turns it on, dials it up, and the fun begins.  Its hard, but at least it gives ne some time to be able to put it out of my mind for a while.

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 I'm not sure how I'm still supposed to get through the next couple of days until my appointment, if it's even possible. I'm battling my thoughts so much tonight and I don't think I'm winning. Things are spiralling out of control faster than I can keep up with. 

I can imagine it would have, going through things like that is always scary. But for now you have a little bit of breathing space and when the next test comes around we will still be here to cheer you on from the sidelines. 

[MJG017]

@Former-Member 

I wish i had an answer for you about getting through until your appointment.  The only way i have of getting through a tough time is just taking in a small step at a time while knowing i just need to make it to whatever it is that im waiting for.

I know thats what you're trying to do and how difficult it is right now, but i dont really have a plan B in these situations,  other that finding distractions and I know you've tried that as well.

I know that one of the hardest battles in life is fighting our own thoughts.  It the one thing we can avoid or turn off.  So just try to do what you can to keep yourself busy.  While it probably wont be a complete distruction, if nothing else it will help to pass the time.  Which id weird, because an hour is an hour no  matter what we do with it.  But it never feels like that.  Our brains are strange.

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 I'm still here today and that's as good as it gets right now. Only one more full day to get through until my appointment on Monday. 

I hate my brain and the fact that I can't just switch off. It's been very touch and go for me at the moment. 

How are you going? 

[MJG017]

@Former-Member 

Im okay today, just very tired and just struggling to do much at all.  So I'm just taking it easy.

It would be so nice just to be able to switch the brain off at times, or at least just change its channel.  If only it was this easy.