Life and trauma

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 no no, you're completely fine. It's just hard to explain and I just want to leave that part of my life out of this. I've edited my posts, it's completely up to you if you want to edit yours. 

[MJG017]

@Former-Member 

No worries, i've edited my posts as well. 

I wont bother mentioning if your last answers were all correct.  Can I at least pretend you were scratching your head for a little while? 😁

I should try to get some sleep   i have to get some blood taken tomorrow morning so i can get the dreaded results on Thursday.  I'm not sure how much sleep is going to happen but i think it will be the same all week so best to get what I can.  I hope you can get some as well.

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 thankyou.

Ok I'll just pretend that I was completely stumped and it took me ages to work them out 🤣.

I hope you can get some sleep, I'll be around if you can't and want to chat. Not sure I'll be sleeping at all tonight unfortunately. All the best for your blood test, I hope all goes well. 

[MJG017]

@Former-Member 

Thank you, i appreciate that.  It makes me feel a little bit smarter 😁

The blood test is to see if a bad result in late November was accurate or just some kind of 'blip'.  I knew it was only a matter of time for this bad result to happen, but hoped it would be a year or two (or even longer) away.  I'll find out Thursday I guess.  Not much I can do until then.

Still, either way, there's always a silver lining.  Like i dont really need to worry about a donut or three affecting my blood sugar and there's no point letting those savings sit in the bank waiting for retirement anymore. 😁

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 glad I could make you feel better 🤣.

I'm hoping it is a blip and that bad result is a long time away. Well everything crossed for you anyway. 

Try to get some rest and just take everything as it comes. Love how you can look at that silver lining. 

Night night and I will talk to you later 🙂

[MJG017]

Hi @Former-Member, how was your day?

[Former-Member]

Hi @MJG017 I'm still here, still breathing and my heart is still beating and that's as good as it gets right now. How about you? How was your day? 

[MJG017]

@Former-Member 

My heart is still beating so taking that as a big win here as well.  Today has been a strange day.  I had the usual amount sleep, with the usual amount of disruptions, but ive just struggled to keep my eyes open all day!  I had to go out first thing to get my blood taken and i think the body just never got started when i got back home.

So it turned out to be a mostly slow day with continuous small nanna-naps.

That was until i got a nessage from someone in my support group.  I had said in the December meeting that there was no official January meeting but I would organise a catchup instead.  So someone sent a message asking me if it was still happening.  I cant believe we're a week into January already!  So I had to drag myself off the couch on to the PC and post the details about the catchup... which I had planned to do between Xmas and NYE.  So at least I did something productive today. 😁

[Former-Member]

@MJG017 happy for your win. Fingers crossed for good news with your blood test. Sorry to hear that you have felt pretty exhausted today, probably doesn't help that you are staying up so late to help me (sorry). 

At least you did something productive unlike me that's accomplished nothing today. 

Try to get lots of sleep tonight and hopefully tomorrow is a better day for you.

[MJG017]

@Former-Member  I dont have work or anything so if I stay up late, i can just sleep in as long as I need, so its not the late nights.  I'm not sure what it is, i just feel so tired.

If it wasnt for that message, trust me, my day would have been totally unproductive... unless we count naps.  I have learnt one thing today though... for such a tiny kitten, Luna farts a lot!  And they are potent!  The first time I had to check myself in case there had been an "incident" 😁

Have you had any of those panic attacks since we spoke last night?