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[Realness]

Hi @DownMoreThanUp ,

It's been a while. I have been immersed in Scripture, Study and books and often find myself without the right words to reply.

I'm sorry it's such a tough time for you. I often think and pray for you and your wife. There is so much for each of you to work through.

[DownMoreThanUp]

@Realness   "I'm glad that Paul ended on grace!"

Yes me too. Where would i be if not for grace? Still in hell, for that is what happens when we deny Him fallen the deep end.

@Realness  "I'm sorry it's such a tough time for you. I often think and pray for you and your wife. There is so much for each of you to work through."

Thanks a lot. What else can you do then pray? i do know that caring hearts mean a lot for Jesus' Spirit is right in it. Such comforts always.

i just hope i can keep on going. At times the urge to give up is almost to hard. Deny myself Heaven and face this every day on my own. (Apart of Jesus and my dogs then.) Not self pity, just wondering. The lead is heavier in the shoes each morning it seems.

@heartathome @ENKELI @tyme @AuntGlow 

Thank you all for your support and prayers very much appreciated and needed. Jesus is the only one i dare to trust, i know i can not trust myself, known that for years, but it hurts to be so lonely all the time. The very worst about all this. How hated i truly must be for this to be like this. That hurts me often so very deeply on my own.

God is the only One who defends me 24/7 and loves me true. My only hope in life is His love for us all. He knows how we are all hurt, and He has our salvation all figured. Such grounds me, time and again. (i love Jesus living in me the living word.)

My New Creation in Him

Revelation lived—Christ revealed to my sight,
His Light at work in my inner world of plight.
His love breaks through, ending my longest night,
Till grace’s dawn restores my lost inner light.

His Breath—His Sword—cuts down the rule of lies,
False powers fall as loving truth arises.
My mind once shaped by darkness’ cruellest claims
Now fades before the Lamb’s redeeming flames.

His grace conceives new life—His holy seed,
His Word my daily bread, His Presence feeds.
Once blind, I see—yet still upheld I stand,
Restored by love no darkness can withstand.

New life unfolds—His Kingdom in my heart,
Old patterns fall, made whole in every part.
A priestly life, in Spirit led and true,
Prays life for those still bound in shadows’ view.

Forever I behold the light of His face,
Held safe in Christ—my dwelling, living place.
All praise to Him—my Light, my Life, my King,
Who shows me now the song of Moses I sing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Yv2jYbuIc8&list=RD8Yv2jYbuIc8&start_radio=1

[heartathome]

Galatians 5:25 (NIV)

“Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit.”

What is going on?

Paul is writing to the churches in Galatia, reminding them that their new life comes through the Holy Spirit—not through striving to follow rules or the law. Just before this verse, he contrasts the “works of the flesh” with the “fruit of the Spirit” (love, joy, peace, etc.). This line is his encouragement to not just receive that life—but to walk it out daily.

Key Greek words 

“Live” (Greek: zōmen) – to truly have life, sustained and given by the Spirit.

“Keep in step” (Greek: stoichōmen) – to walk in line, to stay in rhythm, like keeping step in a quiet, steady path.

“Spirit” (Greek: Pneuma) – God’s Spirit, His presence within, guiding and shaping from the inside out.

Biblical Summary:

Because our life comes from the Spirit, we are called to walk in alignment with Him—step by step—allowing His presence to guide our thoughts, choices, and direction each day. 💚

@Realness @ENKELI @DownMoreThanUp @tyme @Appleblossom @REDLINEZ750 

[DownMoreThanUp]

@heartathome @Realness @ENKELI @tyme @AuntGlow 

i have decided to stop our relationship we keep hurting each other. It is not going to work seeing her more, only hurt her and me more.

i will try and get stable and visits my family in Holland next step. Hopefully not being kicked 24/7 will heal me enough to be able to do that.

sad story ending but i do not know where to go from here. i am, not allowed to be angry and not allowed to hurt. No place for me in this relationship any more. i had hoped for better but it will not be. i know that now. Should have understood this 25 years ago. it has been real pain i didn't it.

Thanks for praying. 

[Realness]

I'm thinking of you and praying for you, @DownMoreThanUp .

May God give you wisdom. May you feel His Spirit guiding you.

[heartathome]

I'm so sorry about your relationship with your wife @DownMoreThanUp This must be so hard for you both! Sending  love and light 💚

[DownMoreThanUp]

@Realness @heartathome @ENKELI @tyme @AuntGlow @Appleblossom 

Things got so bad yesterday that i knew if i kept going the way things were i would surely lose the fight for sanity forever. i truly am between a rock and a hard place, and so is my wife.

Breaking away has released an enormous amount of pressure. This is the first day i have had not even one anger bout. A lot of grief, deep grief, as well as anxiety, striving for so long and then seeing it slip through my fingers when i finally begin to get myself back together again.

Luckily the new meds i'm on has really been working to my advantage keeping me calmer and less emotionally volatile, yet not pushing me into depression, like psych meds always seem to do. Which has been enormously helpful. Trying to stop needing the more potent meds daily, now that i have a far better understanding of the voices. Only use it as backup when overloaded or the hallucinations and psychosis come on in fuller force.

They have been surprisingly quiet and subdued today considering. i hope it stays that way. And depression does not take hold of me and stuff up my plans.

Thanks for caring. You are great Family to know.🤗

[tyme]

Has your space been all sorted yet @ENKELI  . The carpet, flooring furniture etc? 

What colour did you end up choosing?

Hope you are well!

[ENKELI]

@DownMoreThanUp I have no words of wisdom and you don't need any advice.

Just know you are loved and valued.

Still in my prayers brother 🙏 ❤️ 

[ENKELI]

@tyme hey lovely, nothing has been decided yet. I am waiting for my inheritance to be able to buy new stuff. Am thinking cool colours, grey, blues etc. Looking at options has been fun 😁