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[GeminiLion]

I been using Daybreak App (for people who quiting alcohol yet I been sober for 2 years) for personal and looking to replace it. Looking for App or site that I can find comfort when needed to. And I dont want to use social media plus the group on those are usually not very safe for mindfulness even though that the intention. 

Thought I try here. Trial run. See how it goes. But open to recommendations too.

Im back on script. I have noticed an improvement. Im a lot carmer. But sleeping!

Motivation has also drop. Going with flow but I want to find energy as I have projects to do but procastinating. 

Tonight Im a little confused. Im trying not to take it wrong way or misinterpret. Seen a specialist and he got angry after telling him what another department said (was he accusing me/dont believe me or was he angry about how the other department communicated?). When I got home got two emails from different people. One was suggesting/misunderstanding my correspondence about an order so responded to try and clarify reason for my enquiry. And the other I could not feel but an  open attack or sweet response  to my concern about something. 

They say it goes in three! At the moment feel like finding a heavy rock.

Meanwhile I am absolutely loving the isolation and sign me up for expedition to Mars! I always was a loner with no friends and no immediate close family anyway (I do care for dad though who lives elsewhere). I started avoiding social media a while ago and the news and using less technology. I plan to refuce further. I went for two decades totally by myself so find it weird Im having trouble now. Although before I did have issues but I know how it was, and maybe wasnt so bad. 

thats my novel tonight. 

[Former-Member]

@GeminiLion I'm so sorry you're struggling, but congrats on the 2 years being sober, that's a huge achievement and you should be proud!

[Sweet_cheeks]

@GeminiLion Hi, I love the idea of going to mars. I'm pretty self contained too. I guess you are looking for an app are you? I'm not really familiar with them. someone put me on to some mindfulness ones but I couldn't really get into it. I watch a lot of kitchen nightmares lol which helps sometimes. It's my kind of mindfullness. I love the people yelling. Good work on the drinking. I could use that ap. I've found the sane  site to be helpful especially when I can't sleep and feel alone. So I think you've come to the right place.  I hope you are doing ok today. I'm going for a walk it's a beautiful day. What sort of things do you like to do? Cheers sweet cheeks

[NatureLover]

Hi @GeminiLion , congratulations on being sober 2 years! That's a huge achievement!

This is a good forum to be on as someone is always around. I'm not around in the night but it seems busy in the night, to me...

It's good you're feeling calmer, especially as a lot of people are having high anxiety due to Covid-19. I hope you're able to clarify each of the 3 things that were upsetting to you (the specialist and the 2 emails). 

Good luck finding motivation and energy for what you want to do.

[GeminiLion]

Thanks to those who responded. I am unsure how the navigate through thread. So I have done a reply to myself. 

I stop my meds a while ago and started getting stressed and other issues. My doc put me back on them. I notice a differencr myself. However... sleeping gosh! 

Managing like the next person with Covid. Im a carer so I take everything up a notch with additional precautions. Made some mistakes, but Ive now got into rymthm and will maintain it into the future from now on.

I had a reboot today from yesterday. I realise I can misinterpret communication. But was left confused after my hospital specialist appointment for ongoing arm condition. I made an appointment last night via app to put together a plan and get some feedback. As for the emails, Im trying put them behind me and not read into them. As I said reboot today, and with that I restarted graphs today. 

I stop graphs (weight, sleep, food, steps) on 1st but have struggle feeling lost and need to keep track. So I printed them out last night and restarted today and already feeling organise.

I got funding for art project but while the project going okay, my contribution (I have paid other artists + me) I havent done much at all. But generally I have struggle getting passion rekick started. I identify social media as a blame as I see not only colleagues striving past me but my ex-students too. Sure, fb etc can be a mask and the screen isnt true visual representation. But I use to be the famous one they look up to and now Im in bin finish yesterdays news. So I have quit social media (well mostly and might even finish up the two pages I admin quietly). I know other barrier is studio. These day I dont have a studio and nothing I can do about it. Anyway, art my life but have constantly struggle to re-engage.

Ive written heaps. So end it there. My elbow painful. Will go for my afternoon walk. Watch Enterprise. Force myself to paint tonight (once I start Im good, but getting started is hard for weird reason). 🙂

[GeminiLion]

Ive made a general reply as Im new here and not sure with navigating threads setup.

[GeminiLion]

Ive made a general reply as Im new here and not sure with navigating threads setup.

Im looking for somewhere safe to say how things going.

[GeminiLion]

Ive made a general reply as Im new here and not sure with navigating threads setup

[NatureLover]

Hi @GeminiLion , that's good you managed to reboot today. I hope you will find this a safe place to share how things are going for you.

A handy tip is you can put a @ before someone's name and that way they will get a notification that you have replied to them, the way I did with your name above. 

Do you mean that you aren't able to sleep much? Organising with graphs sounds good for keeping track of your wellbeing. 

Good luck re-engaging with your art!