Safe Haven

[Former-Member]

 I've just stopped by to update. Things are not good, not good at all. I appreciate the kindness of those who have taken the time to tag me, but I cannot respond to all, I am so very sorry. 

1. After a month and a half of problems with illness in the first instance and data system failure in the second instance, the Sleep Test has been done. The ludicrousness of the whole affair and how it was explained to me compared to how it was in actuality beggars belief and has created yet another rift in the relationship with my pharmacist. Who would have thought ... 

With any alignment of synergy, the data will be ready for my next gp appointment, but I'll bet it isn't and will have to go through all the motions again for no benefit. 

2. The turkeys - it seems they are turkeys - next door are now flying onto my roof and causing issues in my itsy bitsy garden. Authorities have taken the situation on board and the whole shebang will probably have to be done away with due to regulations about distance and lots of other stuff. So, a potential positive re noise reduction there, but sorry they will most likely lose their poultry. Still, there be reasons for that stuff. 

3. Responsibility to the one person in my life is the only thing currently keeping me functioning even in the slightest. I'm using craft of any type to keep myself focused on something, anything other than the worst. 

4. I've removed all of my published books from sale and taken down my website. I am telling myself I will reorganise it in a different way, focusing on kindness and craft and pretty things and leave all the heartache and pain and vexatious, argumentative people and things out of my focii of attention. So far I have ideas but no idea how to action it in a workable manner. 

5. I'm in a hole, a massive, deep hole and no one with the power to help is interested in doing so. So very alone. So much to say ... but there's no point ... and I don't have the energy ... and who will understand anyway ... 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hearing you @Former-Member ...,,, and we understand here .....,

Can see you are resolving some of the issues with baby steps (the turkeys for instance) and yeah, if they were not allowed to have them under those conditions, then they made something your problem that needs to be handed back to them as their problem, with all the consequence that belong with it ..... not yours and you shouldn’t have had to deal with it ....

The books n such should pack down into baby steps too ..... and something will clarify as the new way forward ....,. but when we are feeling overwhelmed everything feels as heavy as bricks .....

Sounds like it would be helpful to take a breather and just let things sit for a bit .....

Can you do that ?

[outlander]

@Former-Member

[CheerBear]

@Former-Member I'm so sorry to hear things are the way they are for you.

I can't understand exactly what it's like to be you going through what you are, but I can hear how not good things are for you at the moment, and I know what it's like for me to be alone in a massive, deep hole. When I think of that it reminds me of this one. It's a favourite of mine and one I have saved on my phone and look at often. (Also maybe inspired by some Brene Brown sharing this afternoon, thanks Teej)

On the ladder it says "I know what it's like down here, and you're not alone" 

With you ❤

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜💐 @Former-Member ......

[outlander]

Morning @Former-Member hoping your going ok. Thinking of you 💖

[CheerBear]

😔 I hope that wherever you are and whatever you are doing, you are OK enough. Thank you for the time you spent with me and us

❤

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hoping you come back, and soon ...... you are a joy to know SunShower ..... ❤️