Destiny

[Rockdog]

Hey @tyme ,

hugs to you. I am no recovery icon. I am having trouble seeing how it will work out. I do think if if was going to happen it would have by now. Wouldn’t she have made an attempt by now if it was to be? Will wait hoping forever, but I am thinking things probably won’t work and she didn’t feel the same way. 

[tyme]

We all have our own stories. We all have our own journeys. We can never predict what will happen but we can work towards making it what we want it to be.

There are times in life where we may be floating aimlessly a bit, but this doesn't mean things won't work out. It just means things are working out in our time. 

Be the better you. Focus on what keeps you well. Keep looking ahead. @Rockdog 

tyme 

[Rockdog]

Hey @tyme,

thank you, you are right. 
I guess I just put all my hopes and dreams into one thing that got destroyed. I am holding on, but in reality I am losing hope. 

[Rockdog]

Hey @tyme ,

I have hit a really low point. I just hope what we shared was real. Whatever happens it was the most magical connection of my life. For me anyway, I just pray she feels the same way. 

[tyme]

Focus on yourself. Your satisfaction in life will only last if it comes from within. It is not dependent on whether you get something or not.

Things fall into place when you least expect. 

Chin up mate @Rockdog 

I believe in you and I know you can do it.

[Rockdog]

Hey @tyme,

that is true. I guess I just really miss her. She gave me a spark. It has been a year since I walked in front of her car. Lol

I really just want things so badly and they aren’t happening. You believed me that it was real. I have a lot of work to do and yes I do need to find inner peace to stop the pain. Hope you are going well 

[tyme]

Hey mate @Rockdog ,

How's it all going? What have you been up to?

Just to let you know, I'll be going away tomorrow so I won't be around for 2 weeks. I'll see you when I get back.

Don't stop living because you are longing for something or you will miss what hits you in the face.

Just keep going.

[Rockdog]

Hey @tyme ,

thanks for letting me know. Enjoy your time off. Look forward to talking when you get back. I haven’t been up to much, just going through the same stuff. You are right, it does worry me a bit. I have wasted 3 years since the incident thinking about her every day and being miserable when she most probably didn’t have any feelings back. It will be a year on Mother’s Day since I walked in front of her car. Nothing has happened. I do feel I have wasted time worrying. The only thing hitting me in the face at the moment is pain. I will look out for anything good though. Take care 

[Oaktree]

Hi @Rockdog 

Don’t waste your time thinking about what could be or what could’ve been, think about what you can do to work on yourself. Sometimes things align after we are happy and healthy.

Take care x

[Rockdog]

Hey @Oaktree ,

thank you. I am having trouble with it all. I like to think I am working on myself, but really I am just wasting my life. Things that I thought were meant to be were probably just in my head. I think it is too late. I thought I was progressing but I am not. Without upsetting anyone on here, I just feel dead inside now and really aren’t enjoying life.