Lived Experience Forum

[Bluebirdy13]

Writing is so therapeutic for me when I'm anxious.  I'm  so glad I found this thread,  just reading through people's posts,  there are many talented writers.  I look forward to reading more and sharing some of my own. 

[Former-Member]

Death comes slowly
Not much longer now
I am going boldly
And I do know how

An escape from the past
An escape from myself
An escape at long last
Into escape plans I delve

A sparkle of hope
A glimmer of light
Don’t know how to cope
But go on and fight

[nashy]

Thank you @Former-Member  This is such a very beautiful and eloquent piece. Did you write this? The last paragraph is very powerful.

Just want to touch in and check you're traveling okay? Do you need to reach out to any supports?  

[Former-Member]

@nashy  Yes I did write this, always want to end on a positive note, even if I don’t feel it. I’ve reached out.

[eudemonism]

A changing world
Full of delirious demands
Oh so finite (It makes)
My mental stability

Breathing when overly anxious
Taking small steps when depressed
Into the abyss of oblivion
With every single woe and concern

Taking back control
Of my mind and body
So i can experience
Happy and sad

Without it spiralling
Into the chaos of fear
Or into the denial of trust
Silenty observing (nothing) for now

All that i must be
Is loving and caring
And respectful to myself
And to everyone else

I can be nothing
I can be no one
But (i can) still be
All of this

I am bliss

[Former-Member]

 Free fall 

i’ve fallen down the rabbit hole 

into my oldest darkest fears

the darkness and the freezing cold

wants me to leave the now and here

my thoughts are turning up and down

my eyes are blurry with my tears

my body shakes, my forehead frowns

wants me to leave the now and here

what now exists when horrid past

engulves me and tears me apart

what here exists when at last

resilience fails to hold my heart

quiet now the free fall comes

quiet now my head feels numb

[Lauz]

Hi @Former-Member,

This is such a beautiful peice of writing. Writing can be such an encouraging way to travel through a tough time, I am hoping your writing is helping you. You have touched on some feelings of leaving and this could just be in the sense of the poem only, but just to be safe I am just sharing some helplines that can be useful to chat through feelings if you are struggling at the moment 🧡

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

Samaritans: 135 247

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜 @Former-Member ..... 

[Former-Member]

A ll good have been gone

L ife love and change

I n just one moment 

V ery moment could be gone

E very chance taken

I’m alive

H oping I have the courage

O pen to new experiences

P ositive changes 

E merging in recovery

Hope keeps me alive

Six months today

[BlueBay]

B blubbering mess

O only me

R ruined 

D distraction 

E eractic mood

R release 

L lonely

I irrational

N new ways

E everlasting

my life with BPD 

i don’t know why it hit me

its destructive lonely and confusing 

and it’s not so amusing 

anger sets in 

thst you throw things in the bin

i never thought I’d be like this 

my life has changed because of this

I’m to blame fir a lot of things

I wish I wasn’t here she sings

its the hardest thing to live with 

as well as the abuse 

I’m feeling so many emotions today

i just want to go away