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[CheerBear]

I feel overwhelmed. I have no idea how I am going to manage the things I need and want to do, practically and emotionally. I don't know how to be there for everyone I want to be there for and with in every way I want to be there for and with them. I am struggling to work out what is most important moment to moment. I'm struggling to think straight. I bounce from person to person and thing to thing feeling like I am not doing well enough at anything. I don't have enough to put 100% in to everything and in my twisted and messy mind me giving anything less than 100% isn't good enough. Hidden far away from my outside "I'm fine" face I feel anything other than fine and worry, constantly, that nothing I do will ever really be enough because I am not enough.

[Svety]

I wish my brain would just be quiet. That I could study and work and not have to try and make my thoughts quiet down.  I wish I could be normal.

[Maggie]

I think I came to a complete standstill last night. Waiting for a specialist app to get pain relief for RA, waiting and waiting. Then I panic, as I seem to be looking at homelessness in a few short mths. More panic of, if I do find somewhere, how am I going to afford to move. I can’t afford to stay, I don’t want to stay here, so no choice. Depression is all around me it seems, with no way out. I’m in a mess, physically and emotionally.

[Gazza75]

I keep waiting and hoping for a positive change. It does not come. Hard to shake off depression. Getting nowhere fast. 

[BlueBay]

. I hear you @Gazza75 

it’s so damn hard 

Take care ❤️

[Snowie]

I know I am self sabotaging myself but I can't stop. My thoughts, my actions are in a constant battle with myself. There seems to be nothing left.

[Tortoiseshell]

Hi @Snowie,

That sounds really tough Snowie. I'm sorry to hear you're going through this. I know we're sitting with you and thinking of you. Please let us know if you need some extra support.

Tortoiseshell

[Snowie]

I tried to get help but hung up before talking to anyone @Tortoiseshell I am waisting somebodies time who deserve more than I do. 

It does not matter now, it's already done.

[nashy]

hey @Snowie  how are you travelling today?

[Snowie]

Not good @nashy