Lived Experience Forum

[outlander]

lol, good job on getting lots of things done @Sans911
how was your workshops last night?

[Zoe7]

You have been a busy little bee @Sans911 - wtg you for getting some things done (or at least trying to re the keys) 

[Sans911]

Writers group was good. I didn't present anything myself @outlander

[outlander]

thats ok, @Sans911 i love your poems. could you write one for me about anything you like so i can print/save it? no pressure though.
whats your plans for the rest of the day?

[outlander]

evening @Sans911 just checking in to see how your going this evening?

[Sans911]

Hey lil Sis, I'm just paying some bills right now but I can talk.

Why is it the quietest hours, the house is silent, and its dark outside that all thoughts come flooding in. And I'm left with such a deep sadness. Such a sense of loss. I think sometimes I can present so ok that I can fool myself for a while.

How are you doing @outlander?

[outlander]

My sis, the nights are dreadful. It almost like a switch has been flicked. We go from mode to another. I think the nights prey on those with MI. Did you want to talk about anything at all? @Sans911 anything i can help with? Here for you if you need ❤

Im alright just had a shower and jumped into bed.

[Sans911]

No, don't want to talk, can you just sit beside me please?

@outlander

Jasper is staring at me from the end of the bed. Mr A is asleep at my feet. They've been good today. Mr A went outside for a while this morning when the sun was out. It's raining now.

[outlander]

Yes of course sis @Sans911 would it help to watch abit of bbt with me?
Im sure Mr A wouldve really liked that. I wonder what Jaspers thinking if hes staring at you. ...

It is so windy here, loud rumbling through the trees and very chilly!

[Sans911]

Jasper is asleep now. I turned my laptop off a while ago. I'm going to take my meds plus some so hopefully can fall asleep quick. And you know that's not because of you. I hate feeling this way. So if I stop talking you know why @outlander

When I feel like I do know, I don't want to be here on this planet